..grroovaliciousss..

#lifeasafinalyearstudent

2011-12-13T16:05:00.004+08:00

Not such a bad way to spend the holidays? I'm not so sure though this has to be one of the more efficiently time spent holiday haha

Doing simulations can be a really boring job. I can't picture myself doing such repetitive work when i enter the workforce. but i guess a (wo)man's got to do what a (wo)man's gotta do. blahh!

Still, Alhamdulillah. :D May the simulation results coincide with my experimental results InsyaAllah.

My 2 twos'

2011-12-07T08:57:00.005+08:00

The best gift I could ever get for my 22 is trouble getting the modules I aimed to register for.

According to the call receiver (Yes, I called the school even on my final-est semester, InsyaAllah!) this 'Integrated Supply Chain" module is a hot course. Afterwhich I sent an email, as per instructed, and got a "I will KIV your request" reply. Yay to worry #1.

Now I have no mood to go to school to do my fyp. But I must push myself to do it because it is not at any progress currently. worry #2.

I hope this is the last dreaded birthday EVER! Well, that said the worries of adulthood will continue to knock on my door.

Anw, thanks to my well-wishers. I love you all. I have a dinner treat later YAYYY something to look forward to :DD

To those who didn't remember, it's alright because I have trouble remembering yours too :p that doesn't make anyone less a friend. Hate how facebook makes one feel less popular or loved AND even at times, questioning the sincerity of a friend who wishes on one's birthday since it works on an alert reminder system.

HAVE A GOOD DAY EVERYONE! :DD

How to memorize the Quran in 10 years

2011-12-05T10:05:00.004+08:00

The tips below is worth sharing. May we all benefit from this InsyaAllah

Introduction

Alhamdulillah; unlimited thanks and praises are due to Allah; for the blessings of Islam and Qur’an. May His Peace and Blessings be upon the teacher of Islam and Qur’an; Habibi Muhammad, his family members, his companions, those who practise Islam, and the lovers of Al-Qur’an, at all times.

Alhamdulillah, and congratulations to you, for the 5 pages you have memorized, so far. These five pages will be our foundation to build on, to the next level, insha Allah. However, before we proceed to the next level of memorizing the Qur’an, I would like you to make sure that, you can read those five pages at one time, by heart. Only then, you may proceed, to the next level.

The warm-up

Many of us have read “The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People”, by Stephen Covey. We read it with great interest and excitement, with the hope to become "highly effective". After all, we are yet to be "highly effective”, in anyway. The reason is, either we have forgotten, or the book (unlikely) did not indicate to us that; in order to be a "Highly Effective" person, one needs to put in endless effort, and be disciplined.

How long did Steven Covey take to come out with that book (The 7 Habits...)? As at now, I have no idea, but, if we can assume that he took "only" 2 years to do so, we have to imagine that, the book (The 7 Habits...) became his bible, his newspapers, his notes, his dreams and nightmares. That's passion, hardworking and determination! He sacrificed everything (at a point of time) to achieve one thing; The 7 Habits..., would you then, sacrifice nothing to achieve everything; Al-Qur'an?

What applies to The 7 Habits (which I'm yet to read... shhh.. don't tell anybody!) is applicable to The Best Presentation Skills by Iain Ewing. It is also applicable to the so many "Teach Yourself XXX in 24 Hours"; "How to do/get XXX in 3 Days"; and the list never ends.

What applies to all the above, also applies to "How to Memorize the Qur'an in 10 Years, Regardless of Age and Profession?" (http://www.gsalam.net/archives/1159). For the information of those who don't know what "How to Memorize the Qur'an in 10 Years..." is, you are reading Part 2 of "How to Memorize the Qur'an in 10 Years, Regardless of Age and Profession?" (http://www.gsalam.net/archives/1159).

There is no magic in this method. All it requires is great interest, passion, prioritizing it over other habits, hardworking, continuity and discipline. Of course; above all, there should be a genuine intention; Iklhas! Don’t say, “I’m yet to dream to become a Hafiz.” Start to dream, as success starts with a dream. If you are already dreaming; to you I say: Most dreams never come true. So, take an action today, to make your dream come true, insha Allah.

Are you ready for the challenge?! Here we go...

Before we memorize any new verse(s)

This part was touched and discussed in Part 1, but I would like to highlight it here, once again, due to its importance, as far as reading Al-Qur’an or memorizing it is concerned.

Learning Al-Qur’an is one of (if not the only) knowledge(s) that require(s) a direct teacher coaching. This is because reading Al-Qur’an is best done verbally (that’s why it’s called “Qur’an”), and mistakes related to reading it, can only be corrected in the physical presence of a teacher. The first and the best teacher of the Qur’an, Rasulullah himself s.a.w., received the Qur’an from Jibril a.s. verbally. And he s.a.w. taught it (the Qur’an) to the sahabah verbally. Likewise, the companions too, taught the Tabi’een the Qur'an, verbally, down to us.

What I want to say is that, we have to ensure that, we know how to read the verses we memorize correctly. We need to learn to do so, if we don't know. We can arrange with a Qur'an teacher, who can listen to our recitation, and help us correct our mistakes, should there be any, before we memorize them. We can even do that over the phone with an advance arrangement between us and the Qur'an teacher. "A Qur'an teacher" here, refers to anyone, whom you believe they know the Qur'an better than you do. They may be your spouse, your parent or child, your brother or sister, your same gender friend, your same gender neighbour, or the imam of your local mosque.

It’s important that we are able to pronounce the letters (harf/huruf) of the verses, which we are memorizing, correctly. For example, we should be able to differentiate between د and ت, and between ذ and ز, and between س and ث. We should also be able to know the significance of ص andس, the obvious difference between فَعَلْنَا and فَعَلَيْنَا, and so forth. Don't pronounce المُسْتَقِيم as you would do for المُصْتَقِيم or الـمُسْتَكِيم. Identifying the letter and differentiating its characteristics have to be verbally and visually combined. You know عَلَيْهِمْ. So don’t read it like أَلَيْهِم. The former exists, but the latter doesn’t. Same goes to أَنْعَمْتَ and أَنْأَمْتَ; as well as عَلَيْهِم and عَلَيْحِم.

When to; what is the best time of the day, to memorize Al-Qur’an?

This is a common question. A question you will hear every other day. But surprisingly, the answer is not as simple as we may think; as life gets more complex.

Everyone will tell you this: The best time to memorize Al-Qur’an is when one’s mind is free from thoughts, troubles and problems; and distractions. I, too, will tell you the same thing. But, the reality today is that, this kind of time (free from thoughts) is almost impossible to be found nowadays. Do you switch off your phone when you go to bed? Even if you don’t, do you leave it, at least, in the living room? The answer is clearly: no. I don’t either. Today, even children at the age of five, are engaged with iPhone(s) and iPad(s), most of the time. If that is the case, then, we should less expect the time, in which one can have a mind, free from thoughts, troubles and distractions.

Today, everybody is busy. But the question is; what are we actually engaged with? Are we engaged with things, which we are certain of their importance and meaningfulness? Do we spend our time, in a way, that helps us, to become useful and reliable individuals, to our families, communities, nations, and mankind? Or do we allow ourselves to be invaded through entertainment of any kind?

Therefore, the best time to memorize Al-Qur’an is anytime, other than the times, in which we are supposed to carry out our duties, responsibilities and obligations, i.e. obligatory prayers, responsibilities we are tasked with, and are paid for, obligations towards our parents and family. We should not run away from carrying out our amanah(s), for the sake of memorizing Al-Qur’an. And our Amanah(s), in the other hand, shouldn’t be the barrier for us, from becoming Huffaz (Hafizs).

However, since we will be memorizing a few verses, at any time we sit to memorize, and we are expected to be able to do that in 30 minutes, if we are focused, please allow me to suggest that you do it, in the early hours of the morning; an hour before Fajr time (azan). Let's hit two (or 10 if possible!) birds with one stone. These are some of the benefits of memorizing Al-Qur'an at this particular time (before Fajr prayers):

Your du'a at that time is 'mustajab', as Allah Himself gets closest to His creatures (those awake and praying).
We won't miss our witr prayers anymore, insha Allah.
The mind is (at that time) likely to be clear and less engaged.
The body is fresh and energetic (if one is able to take shower).
One is able to pray Subuh on time.
One will be a productive Muslim any day, in which they are able to wake up before Fajr, for memorizing Al-Qur’an, or any other ibadah, insha Allah.

You must know this!

Whenever we sit to memorize a Surah or a few verses, regardless of time and place, we need to do this: focus! The more we focus, the better the verses stick in our memory. Focus enables one to visualize the wordings of the verses and pages easier and hence, recall faster.

Where there's no focus, a lot of time goes wasted, and (almost) nothing is achieved. Where we have focus, little time is spent, for a greater achievement, insha Allah.

If you are to forget everything you read in this article(s), please make it a point, not to forget this;focus. Focus will be helpful to us, not only in Qur'an reading and memorization; it will also come along with us, in our solat, and our everyday endeavors, insha Allah.

How to; how to memorize when we sit to?

I believe, by now, you are certain of how to memorize the Qur’an (http://www.gsalam.net/archives/1159#header_8). This is because, the three weeks we spent memorizing the 13 Surahs (5 pages), have helped us to develop a new habit; reading Al-Qur'an on daily basis, and repeating a Surah or a few verses for 40 times or more. We have also developed the habit of reading Al-Qur'an in different places and situations, i.e. in the mosque, at home, in the street, in the bus, in the train, at the bus stop, at the train station, in the queue and etc. The discipline we have developed, so far, is: "How to memorize Al-Qur'an..." If this (the discipline) really happened, then one can notice some changes in routines; now, you read Al-Qur'an with more confidence and passion, I guess, no matter how little the number of Surahs you have memorized so far, and most importantly, you have prioritized Al-Quran over many things in your life. You are now related, bonded, or let me say, you are in love, with Al-Qur’an Al-Kareem. This is how to memorize Al-Qur'an. And this is all it needs to start memorizing Al-Qur'an, effectively.

Even so, below are the remaining steps of how to memorize Al-Qur'an:

Now, we have the foundation (5 pages each), and it’s time to build it up. I know you have revised them before coming to read this article. Aren't you? I don't want to ask you, to go and do so, before reading on. Why? Because we need to prioritize our Qur'an over all habits. Remember?

Let's make it a point to re-read (muraja’ah) 5 pages a day, one time, before we start with our new memorization. That “5 pages” should always be the most recent 5 pages we have memorized. If we are not able to focus, while revising them, and for that, we make lots of mistakes, it will be a good idea to spend our day mastering those 5 pages, rather than going further, to memorize new lines (or Surah(s). We don’t want to build a house on ice. Do we?

Today, as well as on every memorizing day (5 days a week), we will be memorizing only 3 lines, a day. “Lines” doesn't mean verses. It rather means written lines in a page of the standard copies of Al-Qur'an in our hands toady.

It’s important to get all the 3 lines memorized together, in one session of the first round of memorization. If we need 15 times to do so, it means, we are going to repeat them together, for 15 times, or according to our ability and capacity, until they are memorized. You need 30 minutes approximately, to do this.
Remember, only after this, we will start with the “40 times or more” session, insha Allah.

As we memorize only 3 lines a day, we may come to a situation, where we are memorizing 2 or 3 lines of a verse, whereby the following line, which is not part of today's memorization, is connected with the 3 lines, which we are memorizing. The solution is: if the remaining part of the verse, which we are memorizing, is quarter a line, or half a line, we can add it to today’s portion of memorization. In that case, we will be memorizing more than 3 lines. I hope you won’t mind. However, if you find it troublesome, you may leave it; and add it to the next portion of memorization, insha Allah. This is why part of our muraja’ah (revision) strategy is to revise the most recent 5 pages, which will include the immediate 3 lines, which we are going to memorize, for the day, and which, when we continue to memorize, will be connected, automatically.

Maintain memorizing in the ascending form. This means, we are not going to memorize from Surah Al-Baqarah, for now, maybe for the entire period of our memorization journey.Instead, we will be memorizing the last 5 Juz', first. The last 5 juz' are: Juz' number 30, 29, 28, 27 and 26.

After memorizing the last 5 Juz’, you have the option to continue memorizing upwards. Alternatively, you may continue to memorize, but starting from Surah Al-Baqarah, this time, downwards. I personally prefer the former.

Why is it better to start with the last 5 juz'?

It's always recommended that, we start any structured project with the easy parts, and build up to the difficult level, followed by the most difficult, as we progress.

Imagine, you have started with Surah Al-Baqarah for instance, after a year of hardworking, you will be having 52 memorized pages (based on our method, here). How many Surahs are they? Three! Only 3?! Oh, yes; Al-Fatiha, Al-Baqarah and 3 pages from Aali Imran. Very discouraging. Isn't it?

On the other hand, you started memorizing from below. After a year of disciplined habit, you have successfully memorized 52 pages. That will be from Surah Al-Naas (P. 604) up to Surah Al-Saff (P. 551), plus Surah Al-Fatihah (P. 1). How many Surahs are they? 54!

Allahu Akbar! Almost half the number of Surahs in the Qur'an is down (memorized). That's not true, though. But you are, in a way or another, psychologically motivated, excited and encouraged to finish the mission.

Here are some of the advantages:

The Surahs in the last 5 juz’ are familiar to most of us.
They are short Surahs.
Their verses are shorter.
They are, therefore, easier to be memorized.
They are easy to be revised (muraja'ah) on the go.
Mistakes made in them are easy to be corrected, for beginners.

The road map

There are 6236 verses in the version of Qur'an in our hands, based on the 'Riwayah' (narration) of Hafs. I mean, there are 604 pages in the copies of ‘Mushaf Al-Huffaz’. The term “Mushaf Al-Huffaz” is used to refer to the copies of Qur'an in which each page starts with a beginning of a verse and ends (a page) with the end of a verse. An average page in ‘Mushaf Al-Huffaz’ consists of 15 lines. The term (Mushaf Al-Huffaz) means, "The Qur'an of the Hafizs". I guess you have already obtained your personal copy of Al-Qur'an, for this lifetime mission. Haven't you?

Daily

Pages to revise a day = 5 pages (the most recent)

Lines to Memorize a day = 3 lines (or one short Surah)

Weekly

Days to memorize per week = 5 days

Days to revise per week = 2 days

Lines to memorize per week = 15 lines

Pages to memorize per week = 1 Page

Monthly

Pages to memorize per month = 4 pages

Yearly

Weeks in a Year = 52 weeks

Pages to Memorize a Year = 52 Pages

Juz' to memorize a Year = Almost 3 Juz'

The road map; Year 1

The Chinese philosopher, Lao-Tzu said, “A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step”. I’m glad, you have already begun with the first step, three weeks ago. Alhamdulillah.

The above table is meant for our Year 1 period of memorization, although it may also be applicable for the subsequent years. The only difference is that, in Year 2, you can increase the number of lines, in a way that, at the end of the year (Year 2), you will get the minimum of 60 pages, in Year 2 alone.

You still remember; we only move on, to memorize new verse(s) or Surah, after the current and previous ones are concrete. The "previous ones" refers to the most recent 5 pages. Correct? The same thing applies here.

Let's assume this; today is your first anniversary of starting to memorize the Qur'an. 52 pages (almost 3 Juz') are genuinely in your heart and mind. How do you feel? You feel good; excited; and great! Right? Would you like to lose that, for anything? The answer is surely; NO. Therefore, don't let these 52 pages go. Don't let the sacrifice you made for the past 365 days go for waste. If you need some time to refresh them, before you proceed, please do so. And you may proceed, only when you are confident and certain with them (the pages). The day you resume memorizing will mark the beginning of Year 2, insha Allah.

The road map; Year 2

Alhamudulillah; you are here, in Year 2 of memorizing the Qur’an, with high hope and confidence to finish in 10 years, insha Allah. “Motivation is what gets you started. Habit is what keeps you going”. That was said by Jim Rohn. And I say, discipline is what makes good habits real.

All the steps we applied in Year 1, will be applied this year, too, insha Allah. This year, if you are comfortable with your progress in Year 1, you may add one line or half a line to your daily new memorizations. In that case, 3 lines become 3.5 lines, 4 lines, 4.5 lines or 5 lines.

The road map; Year 3

Alhamdulillah. Today marks the 3rd anniversary since you started memorizing Al-Qur'an. You have successfully memorized the minimum of 104 pages, a few pages away from 6 complete Juz'. Congratulations! Remember the effort you put in, just to achieve this. Don't let that effort go wasted. Therefore, let's not start to build castles in the skies; and let’s instead continue building them on the ground.

Back on track; repeat the hardworking you went through, in Year 1 and Year 2 accordingly, with difference; you can increase the number of lines, in a way that, at the end of the year (Year 3), you will get the minimum of 60 pages, for Year 3 alone. So, assuming you have already achieved 104 pages, from Year 1 and Year 2 combined, by the end of this year, you will achieve 164 pages, insha Allah.

The road map; Year 4-10

You are almost there. 3 years ago, you were thinking of how to start. Your entire wish was to memorize one Juz. Today, by Allah's will, you have gone that far. Today, you are certain that; with Allah’s permission and guidance, you are about to achieve one of the greatest achievement a Muslim can achieve, spiritually. Enough of reading (my article)! Go and accomplish the mission! Allahu Hafiz :)

Wait...! As you go, keep moving. Don’t stop. Don’t give up. There will come some times that you will feel bored or perhaps wanting to give up. You may then, need to review your objectives, behind your ambition to memorizing Al-Qur'an.

Make sure you don't stop, for Sayyidah 'Aishah r.a. related the following:

سُئِلَ النَّبِيُّ صَلَّى اللَّهُ عَلَيْهِ وَسَلَّمَ: أَيُّ الأَعْمَالِ أَحَبُّ إِلَى اللَّهِ؟ قَالَ أَدْوَمُهَا، وَإِنْ قَلَّ

It means, "The Messenger s.a.w. was asked, “Which deeds are most beloved to Allah?” He said: The most constant, even if it's little." [Al-Bukhari]

The "40 times or more" concept... the logic

Take a foolscap (A4 size) paper, fold it into two; get a pencil and a ballpoint pen. Use the pencil to write, or draw anything on the right side of the paper, and use the ballpoint pen to write or draw the same thing (or anything else), on the left side of the paper. Now, look at both sides (right and left) of the paper. Which part do you think will fade easily or can be eradicated easily? The answer is: the right side, where pencil was used. This means, the left side is unlikely to be erased easily, even if water is poured on it.

The right side of the paper represents your initial stage of memorizing any page or any new set of verses. Remember; you may need 10 to 15 or more times, to get this part done. And the left side represents the “40 times or more” concept in the process of your memorization.

An artist uses a pencil to draft their drawing. They only apply colours to them, after correcting any mistakes, and after fine-tuning some parts of the design. They only exhibit their drawing after they have applied paintings on them. This means, you can only present your memorization comfortably, after you have repeated it for 40 times (or more!), to get it stick in your memory.

You may try to read a page or a set of verses, 10-15 times, to memorize it. Thereafter, try to read the same thing, by heart, in your solat. What happens? You won’t know until you try and experience it :)

Please note that, the “40 times or more” repetition is only applicable to our new memorization, i.e. the 3 lines or the short Surah, which we are working on, for the day.

Although we are certain of the importance of the “40 times of more” concept, one may feel bored until they are motivated. Therefore, I find it necessary, to remind myself, and anyone who adopts this method, of the rewards awaiting Qur’an readers. Always remember that, every word you read or repeat, I mean every letter you read or repeat, you are granted 10 rewards. Guess, how many rewards will you be granted, when you repeat a Surah or a set of verses, for 40 times, or more?

Rasulullah s.a.w. said, in a Hadeeth narrated by Ibn Mas'oud r.a., and reported by Al-Tirmidzi:

مَنْ قَرَأَ حَرْفاً مِنْ كِتَابِ اللهِ فَلَهُ حَسَنَةٌ، وَالحَسَنَةُ بِعَشْرِ أَمْثَالِهَا، لاَ أَقُولُ ”الم“ حَرْفٌ، وَلَكِنْ ”أَلِفٌ“ حَرْفٌ، وَ”لاَمٌ“ حَرْفٌ، وَ”مِيمٌ“ حَرْفٌ

It means, "Whoever reads a letter from the book of Allah is rewarded, and each reward is multiplied by ten. I am not saying "Alif Lam Meem" is a letter, but "Alif" is a letter, "Lam" is a letter, and "Meem" is a letter."

The Dos and Don’ts for a Hafiz

The Do's

Memorizing Al-Qur'an is one of the greatest honour a Muslim can achieve. And for one to receive and appreciate an honour, he must prepare himself honourably. In order to achieve that, a Hafiz has to observe the following, as possible:

Be Allah-conscious; fear Allah

Allah has advised us, in Surah Al-Nisaa, 4:131, to fear and observe Him at all times. An advice He advised the people of

the scripture before us. He says:

وَلِلَّـهِ مَا فِي السَّمَاوَاتِ وَمَا فِي الْأَرْضِ، وَلَقَدْ وَصَّيْنَا الَّذِينَ أُوتُوا الْكِتَابَ مِن قَبْلِكُمْ وَإِيَّاكُمْ أَنِ اتَّقُوا اللَّـهَ

It means, “And to Allah belongs whatever is in the heavens, and whatever is on the earth. And We have instructed those who were given the Scripture before you, and yourselves, to fear Allah...”

And Rasulullah s.a.w., also, advised the great companion, Mu’aadh Ibn Jabal, r.a. when he sent him to Yemen, he said to him:

يَا مُعَاذ: اِتَّقِ اللَّهَ حَيْثُ مَا كُنْتَ، وَأَتْبِعِ السَّيِّئَةَ الحَسَنَةَ؛ تَمْحُهَا، وَخَالِقِ النَّاسَ بِخُلُقٍ حَسَن

It means, “O Mu’aadh, fear Allah wherever you are, and follow up a bad deed with a good one; it will wipe it out, and treat people in a kind manner.” [Al-Tirmizhi].

With regards to the rewards we attain when we fear Allah and refrain from ‘ma’siah’ (disobedience), Allah says:

وَاتَّقُوا اللَّـهَ، وَيُعَلِّمُكُمُ اللَّـهُ

It means, “And fear Allah, and Allah [will] teach[es] you”. We all know that, memorizing Al-Qur’an is the door to the kingdom of knowledge. So don't opt yourself out.

Allah s.w.t. also says in Surah Al-Talaaq, 65:2-3:

وَمَن يَتَّقِ اللَّـهَ يَجْعَل لَّهُ مَخْرَجًا * وَيَرْزُقْهُ مِنْ حَيْثُ لَا يَحْتَسِبُ

It means, "And whoever fears Allah - He will make for him a way out. And will provide for him from where he does not expect..."

Carry out good deeds

The basic objective of human existence is to represent Allah on His earth, and to carry out good deeds with the intension of ibadah. Therefore, being kind is a good deed, being generous is another good deed, being respectful is a good manner; going the “extra mile” is another good thing to do. Giving out sadaqah (not zakat, which is obligatory) is something very important in every society, let alone the Muslim community. The obligatory deeds are not what I mean here, because one will answer for them if they fail to carry them out.

إِنَّ الَّذِينَ آمَنُوا وَعَمِلُوا الصَّالِحَاتِ سَيَجْعَلُ لَهُمُ الرَّحْمَـٰنُ وُدًّا

It means, " The Lord of Mercy will bestow affection upon those who believe and perform righteous deeds." [Surah Maryam, 19:96].

وَمَن يَعْمَلْ مِنَ الصَّالِحَاتِ وَهُوَ مُؤْمِنٌ فَلَا يَخَافُ ظُلْمًا وَلَا هَضْمًا

It means, "…but he who does good works, being a believer, shall fear no harm nor any injustice." [Surah Taha, 20:112].

Let’s be Halal-conscious

One of the most important things a Muslim, and a Hafiz in particular, should prioritize, is ensuring that anything we consume is Halal. “Halal” here is not referring to the “No pork... No lard” perception. That’s common sense! “Halal” here is anything permissible and non-prohibited in Islam. Thus, one has to make sure their earnings are earned righteously. Don’t put your hand on others belongings without their permission. Don’t take others for granted. Your provision (rizq/rizki) is already been prepared for you. All you need is to put in the effort, and go for it. Most importantly, go for it righteously; don't cheat; don't lie; don't discriminate; don't be advantageous, nor abusive; and your earnings will be blessed for you and your family.

Rasulullah says in a Hadeeth, narrated by Ka'b Ibn 'Ujrah r.a., related by Imam Al-Tirmidhi, and authenticated by Shaikh Al-Albaani:

لا يَرْبُو لَحْمٌ نَبَتَ مِنْ سُحْتٍ إِلَّا كَانَتْ النَّارُ أَوْلَى بِهِ

It means, “No flesh grown from unlawful earning, unless it deserves the Hell fire more.”

The Heaven lies beneath the feet of (our) mothers

One of the manners treasured and valued by Islam, which surely entitles one for the pleasure of Allah, is honouring one's parents. We must ensure the happiness of our parents, with mothers given priority over fathers, though. Showing obedience is one, let alone humility and sympathy. Rasulullah s.a.w. rejected one of his companions who wanted to join him for Jihad. Instead, he ordered him to go back and serve the needs of his mother; as the heaven lies beneath her feet.

Let’s watch our words

Nothing has hurt man as much as the tongue has done. Nothing has created separation and violence among people, as much as the tongue did. Nothing has created ‘fitnah’ as much as the tongue has created. The tongue is known to be a weak and very sensitive organ, yet the sharpest and most harmful.

The only way one can control their tongue is to be able to control their emotion and observe Allah. This is where they can choose to refrain from uttering words that can be considered undesirable to men of wisdom.

Someone who is busy with Qur'an should have enough to engage them from backbiting. Until today, I'm yet to meet someone, so far, in my life, who does not backlash others. Not even the closest person to me is safe; and the closest person to me is myself. Lutfak… Yaa Allah! (Your Mercy… O Allah!)

We can watch our food, too

In order to go healthy, and be more productive Muslims, we should consider taking care of our food. In other words, we have to be moderate in what we consume. So, we eat only when we need to, not because the food is available. If we are able to control our desire towards food, we are likely to be able to control our desire towards sex, and will that cut down on us, lots of social and moral problems. Problems that may include the desire to control, the desire to cheat, the desire to oppress, the desire to kill, the desire to break laws and etc. This is why, we are more disciplined and Allah-conscious in the month of Ramadhan, or when one is fasting.

Rasulullah has given us guidelines with regards to how to moderate, in our consumption of food, when he said, in a Hadeeth reported by Imam Ahmad and Al-Tirmidhi:

مَا مَلأَ آدَمِيٌّ وِعَاءً شَرًّا مِنْ بَطْنٍ؛ بِحَسْبِ ابْنِ آدَمَ أُكُلاتٌ يُقِمْنَ صُلْبَهُ؛ فَإِنْ كَانَ لا مَحَالَةَ فَثُلُثٌ لِطَعَامِهِ، وَثُلُثٌ لِشَرَابِهِ، وَثُلُثٌ لِنَفَسِهِ

It means, “The son of Adam does not fill any vessel worse than his stomach. It is enough for the son of Adam to eat a few mouthfuls to keep him going, but if he must (fill his stomach), then one third for his food, one third for his drink and one third for air.”

If we are able to practise this teaching of Rasulullah s.a.w., it will lead one to have a healthy, and light and active body, for a lifestyle that will save us a lot of pains and regrets, in our elderly age. The lighter one's body is, the easier ibadah becomes, for them, and obviously, the lesser they sleep, insha Allah.

Maintain your wudhu (ablution), as possible

'Wudhu' brightens one’s face, cleanses their heart, and puts them in a spiritual spotlight. It may not be convenient to take 'wudhu' 15 times a day (the number of times one may go to the gents/ladies), though. But this is what makes those who are wudhu-conscious special.

Besides its spiritual effect, 'wudhu' has physical effectiveness on one's health. That's why; when one is sleepy, they wash their face. When they are stressed, they wash their face. And when they are tired, they feel refreshed after washing. Also, one won’t take ‘wudhu’ until they have cleaned themselves inside out.

What about... Hygiene?

Nothing tops Al-Qur'an. Nothing is as clean and pure as Al-Qur'an is. The Qur'an is a clean content, no doubt. Therefore, one's brain should be a clean container for that content. And their body must be a clean carrier for the brain which contains the Qur'an. So, it's important for the Hafiz to be mindful, with regards to cleanliness, physically and spiritually. Physically by been hygienic and spiritually by maintaining 'wudhu', as possible. Taking bath (or shower) doesn't necessarily mean 'wudhu’.

Rasulullah s.a.w. is our role model in hygiene. He ensured that he used his 'siwak' before entering the house, so to avoid any bad smell, been smelt from him. He wore perfume at all times, although his natural sweat smelt perfume. Shouldn't we learn from what he did, to teach us, when he himself, didn't need it? He also advised us to ensure our nails are always clipped and clean; our hair and beard are neat and combed; and even the unseen corners of our bodies are equally taking care of. SubhanAllah!

The Don'ts

Carrying out righteous deeds, although requires lots of effort being put in, is not as challenging as avoiding sins and refraining from them. All kinds of sins are visually tempting, and man is created weak. As much as sins are visually tempting, refraining from (committing) them is equally rewarding.

إِنَّ النَّفْسَ لَأَمَّارَةٌ بِالسُّوءِ إِلَّا مَا رَحِمَ رَبِّي

It means, “man's very soul incites him to evil, unless my Lord bestows His mercy". [Surah Yousuf, 12:53]. So, what are the don’ts?

Can I mention music?

The “hard truth” today, is to say the right thing about bad things, or bad habits. These bad things are topped by music, unfortunately. I can imagine you, reading this line with shock and surprize. No wonder; this is 'Akhir zaman' (end of time).

Let's answer these two questions:

Where will you find music effortlessly?
Where is the expected place to find Al-Qur’an easily?

Those two questions were general. Now, I have a specific question for you:

What do you want your heart to be like? Do you want it to be like a music hub or Qur'an hub?

It’s important for us to notice that, music and Qur’an do not get along in one heart, unless either of them overcomes the other. It’s either music overcomes Al-Qur’an, or Al-Qur’an overcomes music. We all know that; Ma'siah (disobedience to Allah) is very tempting, and 'ibadah is very challenging.

If you are in the train, and spot someone, who are deeply engaged and amused with their music (be it reggae, funky, rock, rap, hip-pop, k-pop, j-pop, or whatever), to the extent that, they shake themselves (dance). Would you blame them for that? Most likely, no. Simply because, it’s understood that, this is the side-effect of music.

Likewise, you shouldn’t blame someone, who refers to verses from Al-Qur’an, or listens to the Qur'an, and instead of jumping and dancing, they seem calm and humble.

It's sad to see in the mosques today; when the imam gets stuck, nobody is able to remind him. Why? It’s because Qur'an is involved. But when a songster starts to sing, everyone continues the song for them; and sing along. SubhanAllah!

Not only that, some of who claim that, Al-Qur’an is difficult, and is not in their native language(s), do memorize songs from languages, which they don’t understand at all, i.e. Korean, Japanese and the American English.

I think, it’s about time that our Muslim organizations conduct “Don’t forget the Qur’an” stage, for our youth.

I didn't say music if from Iblis. That's supposed to be understood. What I'm rather saying is, Al-Qur'an is the word of Allah. Would you mix the word of Allah with something that is favourite to Iblis, in your heart?

Avoid hasad (jealousy)

In order for our Qur'an to be genuine, it's very important that, we purify our hearts from jealousy. What is yours will never miss you, and what is not meant for you, won't come to you. If you take it unlawfully, you may pay the price miserably. Self contentment is one of the powerful tools a Hafiz is given. So practise to achieve it. And don't allow jealousy to invade and occupy your heart.

The only factor that prevented the Jews to accept Rasulullah and Islam, until today, is jealousy, and not ignorance. Jealousy is also one of the main factors that cause some Muslims; unfortunately, to turn to black magic (sihr), just to see the downfall of fellow Muslims. Astaghfirullah!

The slow suicide; smoking

You have tried 1000 times to quit smoking, but reverted back to smoking, because you couldn’t control your desire. However, anytime you are having an important meeting, you will make sure no bad smell (of cigarette) can be smelt on you. If that’s the case, we should not forget that whenever, at any time and any point we read the Qur’an, we are in the company (meeting with) of Allah s.w.t. Therefore, Allah is the best One we should ensure He does not smell, the smell of cigarette on us. Also, Allah is with us at all times, even when we are not reading Al-Qur'an.

The above describes those who show respect for themselves and the people they deal with, or the people around them.

What saddens is, when some [Muslim] smokers go against all values and etiquettes to smoke in the public transports, lifts, toilets and the worst, in the mosques premises.

If we are advised by Rasulullah s.a.w., not to consume onions and garlics (which are good for our health), before going to the mosque anytime, sooner after that, I don’t see why then, we can cover ourselves, with the smoke of cigarette (which is harmful to our health, and to the health of others, too) when reading Al-Qur’an, or entering the mosque?

Let's put it this way; the Government of your country has banned cigarette and smoking nationwide, indoors and outdoors. Violation of this law will subject the offender to prosecution. Would you smoke, now onwards? Certainly, someone else would, but you are not the one. Are you?

Allah commands us no to kill ourselves, in Surah Al-Baqarah, 2:195:

وَلَا تُلْقُوا بِأَيْدِيكُمْ إِلَى التَّهْلُكَةِ ۛ وَأَحْسِنُوا ۛ إِنَّ اللَّـهَ يُحِبُّ الْمُحْسِنِينَ

It means, “…and do not throw [yourselves] with your [own] hands into destruction. And do good; indeed, Allah loves the doers of good.”

He also orders us; not to kill ourselves, in Surah Al-Nisaa, 4:29, as He is the Most Merciful to us:

وَلا تَقْتُلُوا أَنفُسَكُمْ، إِنَّ اللَّهَ كَانَ بِكُمْ رَحِيمًا

It means, “And do not kill yourselves [or one another]. Indeed, Allah is to you ever Merciful.

Ok.. It’s time for homework; Family Bonding!

Now that you know the “how to”, let’s seize the opportunity to create family bonding. To make it clear, this is the time for homework.. o.O!

Let’s assume that you are the only one in your family adopting this method. Seek the help of your family members, and their understanding, beforehand.
On either of the 2 days of your muraja’ah (revision) days, bring them together, each of them holding their Qur’an, and you read your revision, by heart. When you get stuck, one person will signal to you, that you have made a mistake. Try to correct them on your own. After the 3rd failure attempt, someone can then, remind you.
If there are two of you, in your family, who have adopted this, then, your time spent can be more exciting with your family, following the above method. But when one of you is reading, it will be good for the other to follow with his Qur’an closed, although, all the rest of the family members have their Qur’an open.
That’s all… for today :)

Until we meet again, in Part 3 and the final part of "How to Memorize Al-Qur'an in 10 years, Regardless of Age and Profession?", I leave you, in the Guaranteed Protection of Allah, and I say "Ameen" to your dua's.

Allah knows best.

Allahu Hafiz :)

Abdul-Salam Abdul-Hameed

GSalam.Net

Exam Thoughts

2011-11-28T09:36:00.004+08:00

Been 2 days since my exams ended. The 2 last papers somewhat crushed my hopes of possibly jumping my honours class. Guess I am settling with the 3rd Class (?) Most importantly I hope to get a job that will apply some knowledge I gained so far and make me closer to You. Amin :))

Anyway this post will is meant to share some quick thoughts on the exams.

Cheat sheet: This is not the first semester I have to do a cheat sheet and I want to rant on why this piece-of-shit; pun intended, is BAD!

For the benefit of those who don't know (assuming I have readers from different parts of the world hehehe), cheat sheet is a double-sided A4 sized paper containing any information or formula you can fit into it for a particular module. This piece of paper will be allowed to be brought into the examination hall.

I could've sworn this "restricted open book" is a troublesome chore. Formatting it sucks!

You have to minimize the font to maximize the use of the spaces. And as a kiasu Singaporean, I tried to squeeze in as much information as possible into it, but in the end, it didn't work THERE WERE STILL MISSING BITS, much to my irritation. Pretty sure, I am not the most kiasu-est for that matter. I saw someone with a much smaller font, I suspect around size 4. You then squint your eyes whilst doing the paper unless you are willing to invest in a magnifying glass or USE it, even. Like the myopia rate in Singapore is not high enough...zzz

Also since it's meant to be in a way, open book, why not just allow it to be a NON-restricted open one? One of the profs mentioned that he didnt want the students to have a messy table for fear that it will result in a cluttered brain. I am not sure if I'm supposed to feel glad that oh wow!, my Prof cares about me but no, I am not impressed with the reason :(( I feel that the time spent on formatting the cheat sheet could've been channeled into deeper understanding of the concepts, instead.

Of course, you can argue, it's my fault for being inefficient in using Microsoft Word hence, taking a longer time to prepare the cheat sheet. Or that doing up the shit is a way of revising. Up to you. I am just voicing out my thoughts here.

I have more rants but am cutting it short. I dont like to appear like a whiny, damsel in distress. And my defense mechanism, is 50% now. I'm having that colddddddd shiverrrr :SS

On a random note :

During navigation revision, I can't stop giggling at the word epoch. Go figure. Not so hard for the Malays. It's related to a kuih hehehe

#Theawkwardmoment when you know that there is no need to check on the updates of a person because you don't bother anymore but you still do it out of habit.

The one that got away

2011-11-20T08:41:00.001+08:00

It's time to face the music.

I am no longer your muse..

Lately, I've been feeling..

2011-11-18T20:57:00.004+08:00

Contented.

Alhamdulillah, my heart feels full. Strange yet thankful enough, this comes in the crucial time of the upcoming exams, starting tomorrow. Not that I have no worries. Not that I don't aim to do well like the rest. Anw, there are various reasons for this, and none of them involve a boy (HAHA!)

1) I finally know what I want to do in the future. Aside from my travelling plan, I have a dream.

Of being my own boss. Owning a franchise business at least 5 years from now. InsyaAllah. I'm jotting this down to make sure that 5 years on, I look back here to see if I'm heading to the same direction. :) I better have a strong valid reason if it doesn't come into realization.

2) Tweeting makes me happy. I feel free to express my views, preach in my own way (macam paham :p), comfort my friends, getting the latest news and many more.Not that I am here to promote Twitter so I shall stop here for this point.

3) The Starhub cable TV. Discovery channel enlightens me with information on diverse topics. From airplane crashes (which elaborated on the anti-collision system which I did a project on TCAS and I could relate to them YAYY!) to the formation of moons in the universe. The saying that "the more you learn, the less you know" stands true. I feel small. And this small has nothing to do with self-confidence size, rather a humbled feeling to the Creator. SubhanaAllah, we humans can never know enough. Mio problematic self is a blessing in disguise.

4) This kid here has been on replay mode. Watch him. Trust me, you will forget your troubles! Temporarily of course. heh

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A17aPRAVPGs

5) Quran. The best food for the soul. I try my best to read a page a day, especially on days when I feel either stress or sadness slowly knocking on the door. This is not enough though. I want to have a guru to help me in memorizing the verses and more importantly understand the miracles behind these ayats by delving into the meanings. I must set an aim for this as well.

That being said, there's alot of reasons to be happy and contented with life. Maximize happiness. Life is a choice. How you face the day is entirely up to you. Even if someone comes to ruin it, You can turn it around. YES YOU!

SO, hold your head up and cheer up no matter what state you are in.

In remembrance of Allah, do your heart find peace. :))

Just hoping that when the period approaches, this feeling wouldn't be diminished. hehehehe

2011-11-07T10:25:00.003+08:00

Research: Islamic Slaughtering and Western method of Slaughtering.

Let's begin with a small introduction with the term HALAAL

What is Halaal ( ﻝﻼﺣ )?

Halal is an Arabic word meaning lawful or permitted. The opposite of halal is HARAAM (ﻡﺍﺮﺣ ), which means unlawful or prohibited. Halal and haram are universal terms that apply to allfacets of life. However, we will use these terms only in relation to food products, meat products, cosmetics, personal care products, pharmaceuticals, food ingredients, and food contact materials.

While many things are clearly halal or haram, there are some things which are not clear. Further information is needed to categorize them as halal or haram. Such items are often referred to asmashbooh, which means doubtful or questionable.

All foods are considered halal except the following (which are haram):
Swine/Pork and its by-products - Read more on WHY PORK IS PROHIBITED
Animals improperly slaughtered or dead before slaughtering
Alcoholic drinks and intoxicants Carnivorous animals, birds of prey and certain other animals Foods contaminated with any of the above products,

Foods containing ingredients such as gelatin, enzymes, emulsifiers, and flavors are questionable (mashbooh), because the origin of the seingredients is not known.

Let's now move into the topic.

The Islamic practice of slaughtering animals by means of a sharp cut to the front of the neck has frequently come under attack by some animal rights activists as being a form of animal cruelty, the claim being that it is a painful in human method of killing animals. In the West, it is required by law to stun the animals with a shot to the head before the slaughter, supposedly to render the animal unconscious and to prevent it from reviving before it is killed so as not to slow down the movement of the processing line. It is also used toprevent the animal from feeling pain before it dies.

German Research Studies Pain,

It therefore may come as a surprise to those who have made such acclimations to learn of the results of a study carried out by Professor Wilhelm Schulzeand his colleague Dr. Hazim at the School of Veterinary Medicine, Hannover University in Germany. The study: ‘Attempts to Objectify Pain and Consciousness in Conventional (captive boltpistol stunning) and Ritual (halal, knife) Methods of Slaughtering Sheep and Calves’ concludes that Islamic slaughtering is the most humane method of slaughter and that captive bolt stunning, practiced in the West, causes severe pain to the animal.

In the study, several electrodes were surgicallyimplanted at various points of the skull of allanimals, touching the surface of the brain. Theanimals were allowed to recover for several weeks. Some animals were then slaughtered by making a swift, deep incision with a sharp knife on the neck cutting the jugular veins and thecarotid arteries as well as the trachea andesophagus (Islamic method). Other animals werestunned using a Captive Bolt Pistol (CBP). During the experiment, an electroencephal ograph (EEG) and anelectrocardiogram (ECG) recorded the condition of the brain and the heart of all animals during the course of slaughter and stunning.

The results were as follows:

I – Islamic Method When you slaughter in Islamic way the blood is drained from the flesh, where as other method ofkilling clots the blood and 45 percent of the blood remains in the flesh, hence eating such meat is highly dagerous to health, especially kids.

1. The first three seconds from the time of Islamic slaughter as recorded on the EEG did not show any change from the graph before slaughter, thus indicating that the animal did not feel any painduring or immediately after the incision.

2. For the following 3 seconds, the EEG recorded acondition of deep sleep - unconsciousness. This is due to the large quantity of blood gushing out from the body.

3. After the above-mentioned 6 seconds, the EEG recorded zero level, showing no feeling of pain atall.

4. As the brain message (EEG) dropped to zero level, the heart was still pounding and the body convulsing vigorously (A reflex action of the spinal cord) driving a maximum amount of blood from the body thus resulting in hygienic meat for the consumer.

2011-10-19T04:18:00.004+08:00

Ya Allah

I feel that I can't take it anymore. Can i just quit school? I've been spending so many days figuring out something minor before I could go on to do the question itself. and this is the Allah-knows-how-many-times it is just for this week alone. oh by the way, the week just started 2 days ago.

It feels so unfair that because of this I couldn't contribute more. The contributions are just like a speck of dust. I couldn't even contribute to my own education.

It's not that I didn't Google for it. It's not that I didn't try to Youtube it. I want to be self-reliant but at the same time I consume too much time trying to figure out on my own, and by then, the rabbits are done with the race.

It's 4am in the morning and I am feeling very depressed now.

I hate crying because it's a sign of weakness when one keeps on doing it. Once again, I failed to control them emotions :'((

2011-09-30T18:24:00.003+08:00

Gosh!

Almost everyone I am close to in the course had started actively looking for a job. And here I am blogging away and worrying about understanding the concepts in my lecture notes.

Am I abnormal for not feeling the rush to hunt for a job now?

Or am I just less kiasu?

2011-09-18T21:52:00.003+08:00

If you've known me by now, I work based on reward system. Which is bad, because at times i reward myself even when I don't think I only half-deserved it. :p

I don't really know how to introduce the topic i wanna talk about today so that paragraph above was nothing but a-distracted-me. Again. Basically it's regarding a TV show that I've been following online entitled "Tahajjud Cinta" The fact that there's an Islamic element in the title and that it featured my favourites : Fouziah Gous & Fazura, makes me attracted to it. And not to mention Erma Fatima as the producer/ director! (can't remember and too lazy to google at this point :p)

I read abit about the story before I began watching it and was surprised by the critics which mainly disagrees with the portrayal of the Ustaz as a man who uses Quranic and Hadeeth verses to fulfill his desire of having a young wife. Oh! By the way, he did have 4 wives earlier but to get a new one, he used an excuse to divorce his then 3rd wife. Critics questioned about the need to have such characters who seemed to make fun of the religion. There were other critics I found which I don't see the need to reiterate it here.

My point is, the days when characters have to be perfectly white or black are long gone. Now, many of them are of shades of grey. We have to accept that. In fact isn't that the reality of life? When temptations come, we tend to lose our ground. How, despite the Ustaz being highly respected in the kampung for his knowledge, his son and wives were unhappy with his actions.

Some of us are lucky enough to get back on the right track but the rest, lose the battle, just like Two-Face in Dark Knight. He was the fighter against evil until he lost his beloved one and ultimately, lost his grounding.

I do get pissed with that Ustaz Shauki (even his wives calls him by ustaz...zzzzzzz seriously, whoever does that to your own husband?!!) each time I watch him on screen, yet, he is the factor that kept me wanting to watch more. the irony.

Its somewhat thrilling to see how anyone can manipulate the minds of others using religion's name etc to suit their own personal benefit. I enjoy the depth of the script and appreciate the effort of the scriptwriter who obviously did his research well. Almost every line was crafted carefully to make viewers think beyond the surface level.

Back to ENS and doing my own research!

Depressed Week is Over

2011-09-16T20:58:00.003+08:00

Yes, i finally admitted I was depressed. Broke down almost everyday at the musolla. sungguhkesian.com kan haahha but alhamdulillah, crying helps to make me feel better. I am thankful that I have best friends who encourage me and reminded me that " next time when u face any problems, don't find me pulak, seek Allah tau. :)" like that's the bestest advise I got :DD afterall in life, what I've also prayed for is a life that brings me closer to Him in any adversity or ease that he bestow on me.

Anw, when you are unhappy about someone, its best to talk to the person directly about the situation rather than talk behind their back. If you can't do it face to face, find other ways to do it. Technology is there for a reason.

Also, stop comparing yourself with others. If it makes u wanna strive harder to achieve better result, its good .. but if u are just going to crush your morale every time by doing so, then what's the point really??

No wonder human beings are not perfect. Just imagine the arrogance, otherwise.

#justsaying

Raya 2011

2011-09-04T23:02:00.004+08:00

Contrary to previous post, the weekend that had just passed made me enjoy the meaning of Hari Raya once again. True enough, visiting your relatives and friends; seeking forgiveness from them forms the gist of the celebration. On Tues, my family only gathered at granny's and they came over to my house and an uncle, and that was it. Simply because the following working day.

Anyway, as I made my roundings over Sat & Sun, I thought about a few things. Now that its almost past my sleeping time, I shall just talk about one of them which is : Life is fragile. Treasure it.

Now, all of you readers out there have heard of it and may even take it just like a passing remark, considering how often this 2 sentences are mentioned from time to time. Sadly, I am one of them.

Until.I.heard about the news about a cousin of Mum's who recently passed away at a young age of 30+ due to diabetes. She chopped off her legs not long before kicking the bucket to prevent the disease from spreading. 30 years old is tooo young an age to die, don't you think so?? Just the previous year she was joking around with her cousins. And now, she's gone. This is what I fear off. IMO, dying in this manner is a like wasting of a life. I dont want to go like that :((

Hence, here I am, urging myself, before I urge anyone else, TO TAKE GOOD CARE OF MY HEALTH. OF THE FOOD I CONSUME. ENSURE THAT THEY ARE NOT JUST HALAL, BUT TOYYIBBAH (BAIK)! Allah, grant me the strength to carry out this "pledge" and be istiqamah about it.

If I were to go, I would like that my age is berkat. Like another relative whom I visited. She's 90+ now with great memory and an eyesight close to perfection. She brought up her child well and has a smile that seem to withstand any tide. Her secret: the Al-Quran. MasyaAllah! I don't expect myself to reach such a ripe age but well, You get what I mean. Need I say more...My Creator knows what I want and what I need without having to explicitly spelling it out. :)) Make me closer to You, okay?

2011-08-29T08:00:00.004+08:00

The last day of Ramadhan and there is, but the slightest excitement for Syawal.

Is it school or the absence of ibadah in the last 10 days that brings this emotion, I can't decide.

Or even the recent Presidential Election where I regretted my choice in not helping to get the right TAN to run the office? If he's just going to be another rubberstamp, it wouln't have mattered that much. In all sense, the weak mandate shows the lack of confidence that Sporeans have on PAP. I have expected this yet somehow I got frustrated.

For the next 6 years, Colonel Sanders posters endorsing for a particular hair cream will be representing Singapore. Upset we are, but soon enough, time will heal.

Extremely Smart People

2011-07-08T10:53:00.004+08:00

The Curious Incident of The Dog in The Night Time ; My Name Is Khan.

Heard of these 2 titles before? If you haven't, simply click the wiki links, convenient much ain't it? :D

Both stories touched me enough to make me read more about the Asperger's syndrome. Shall I put another wiki link here? Ok a short video clip of the life of one diagnosed with this disorder instead, for a slight change. I figured perhaps, no one would even click on the links I put above. HEHEHE

What I like about this group of people is their blatant honesty.

And the fact that they are extremely smart. And they make you think about things that you never thought deeply about. And I am emo now as I listen to Malay Jiwang tunes. And you should have noticed how the previous statement is not related to the topic at all. :p

Well, I was just attempting to show you part of what goes through their minds which I picked up while reading the book from the usage of "And"s. I obviously have failed because I am not a true blue AS patient. Alhamdulillah.

No doubt, people with AS have above average IQ level but their condition makes them social inept. They have a lot of logical questions which is good because it stimulates the brain but at times in life things just cant be simply explained. But. Their questions can be quite irri-noying too. Poor thing :'( It must have been very difficult for them in school where socialising is highly required (because of their smart-ness, they couldn't be put into special schools, so most are placed in normal stream schools). Yet, it's not something they can have a control of. This makes us, the normal people responsible to understand their difficulties and not ostracise them. Sure, adapting to them is not easy, what with their phobia to be amongst a crowd, but we have our own phobias too, no?

Sensitivity towards the needs of others goes a long way. And I am sure you will agree that more often than not, happiness comes from making others happy.

Well, i thought this post would be longer but ended up short. guess i don't have an exploratory brain as i've imagined myself to have. perangai perasan jugak as usual. LOL!

10 random things about me

2011-06-12T07:37:00.006+08:00

Life is a bliss.

I am free from academic obligations (for a month), I get to catch up with friends, "sai-kang" work had ended , and I could cook / sew when I feel like it. Having said that, I spent most of the time surfing the internet and snooping around on FB. hehehe I recalled a period when people will tag their friends on some notes and expect them to complete it. I came across a "25-random-things-about-me" and decided to try it today. It may bore you halfway through the list but you can choose to stay on, if you are free, just like me.

In the order of what comes to mind first, here goes :

1. I've been reading a close friend's blog and thought that the idea of "Read more" page break is great. Ihaven't upgraded my blog to have that icon so I'm just trying out by typing "" on Edit Html. Whether this will work or not, I will only find out when this entry is published. I made a pact to myself not to preview until I'm done with it. You will know if I stick to this pact, perhaps, at Number 10?

2. My younger sister owes me a McSpicy Burger. YUMMMYY. Im craving for it now that I am fasting. alamakkkk. This owing me a burger thing came about because I made an advance payment for her Itouch during a recent IT fair.

3. Oh, by the way, my family has the habit of adding a "you" to the end of that particular gadget's name. so it is now "i-touch-you" by TheSamsudins. Now, depending on how you view it, it can sound pret-tty obscene haha

4. Out of the many things I did during attachment, I will always remember how I threw away my last pay cheque.YES, YOU READ IT RIGHT : I THREW AWAY MY CHEQUE. A great way to end IA with a Bang, no? :p Of course it was by accident. I slid it in a notebook that I figured would be for keep back in the office, but the moment I stepped out of the company, I just happy-happy (I am Singaporean, wokay? proud of the slangs we use :D) threw the notebook away as it kinda made my bag looked bulky. Hence, down the trash, the cheque went with the notebook. Thankfully, it was retrieved by the security guard. He was just curious about the book and flipped though the pages and poof! the cheque came out. I thought I've completely lost my month's pay when I got a call from the company on the following Monday. Picture yourself saying your goodbyes to your friends in the company, like you'll never step into the place EVER again, only to find yourself in there, just the next week. Then my dear friends have to rub it in by saying "wah tak sayang duit eh" & "cheyyy dah kaya lah. tu pasal buang2 duit" GOSH! #storyofmylife

Anyway, moral of the story : What's meant to be yours, will be. Sings "Que Sera Sera" :D

5. Next year will be damn exciting. My sissy and a close friend will be getting married. I am graduating; okay that sounds so-near-yet-so-far. Praying from now that things go smoothly for the next year. All readers say "A-MIN!"... thankyou! =D

6. I have a dream. And the dream is to travel the world. I always wanted to achieve something in life and this is definitely, by far my clearest goal. Doing something daring along the way would be good too; like bungee jumping! woottss! Wait a minute, I think Would be good to,errm .. start with the BattleStar Gallactica in Sentosa first. Reading about it was enough to make me feel threatened by it. LOL! so many thoughts at one go there.Regardless, I must perform my H_ _ first, INSA. :) Once again, All readers say A-MIN!... thankyou! =D

7. Almost 3/4 of the time, I will have www.dictionary.com & www.thesaurus.com tabs opened whilst I type my blog. I wanna make sure that the words I use is appropriate and I try my best to not make it sound repetitive though tendency for that to fail is relatively high. Yes, I am self-conscious like that. Which brings to my next point

8. That people should ensure their posts will be grammatically sound before actually posting it. Lately, my brain triggers some kind of warnings to mistakes in grammar found in my friends post. I correct these status despite my English being far from perfect in the first place. Like this one here. (YES, I actually spent some time googling for an example *roll eyes* )I get that she's VERY ANGRY (!!!) but because of her spelling mistakes, I can't help but laugh at her instead of sympathising her:

It sucks because I end up judging them. She looks dumb to any reader now. Kesian LOL!

9. F.R.I.E.N.D.S IS AWESOMEEE. Just like in any circle of friends, almost all of us, have a particular friend who is slightly more sotong than the rest. hahaha. Like this Joey guy here :

:p Just to clear things up, I don't support co-habiting with friends you aren't married to.HEH

10. Honestly, it was supposed to be a 25 numbered list but I get bored by now and 10 looks like the nearest best point to stop. I have edited the first paragraph to make it look like the original intention was to prepare a-10-list but for the record, NO.

In conclusion,

Ending this here; goes to show that I am somewhat an easily-distracted-easily-bored-kental individual. ok off to watch FRIENDS! and hopefully the page break works =D

2011-06-11T15:34:00.008+08:00

I must say I am proud of my choice as far as my blog skin is concerned. There's a mysterious and classic feel in it, don't you think? It makes me feel happy just at the thought of someone stumbling upon my blog and say ," Hey, I've got to read up on this person's entries to know more about her. She's so mysterious." Ohhh la la laaa! hehehe Its a feel-good sensation, I tell you =p Regardless, even with my new twitter account, I know that there are certain things that I will always keep to myself. As pretty Emma Watson says :

Same goes for your clothes, peeps ;D

Ignore the earlier paragraph; it was just me getting distracted. Actually i was thinking about certain life choices that I have made and will continue to make in the future. This nagging thought came knocking on my head whilst I was placing my FYP choices. Since it works based on a balloting system, it is very crucial that I place my choices according to my preferences. I was torn between choosing a project that I have more confident to work for but is mundane versus a project that would suit the better brains in the cohort, which of course, sounds more interesting.

I know that this time round the choices I made wasn't a form of escapism. It is not a rash one either. Alhamdulillah for that.

Now I need to apply the same rationalising-my-thoughts steps before i decide the modules i wanna take this upcoming semester. And my life in the future.

I love FB for helping me to keep in touch with friends EVERYWHERE. A chance to reminisce about the good old days and doing some catch up.HEHE. Been meaning to further expand on that .Also. I have in mind to post about my thoughts on the various wedding proposals I viewed via FB. But. I am stopping in a few lines.

This time round, I am putting the blame on toilet upgrading for killing my mood to continue typing. You see, this upgrading thingy brings a lot of hassle, having to pack, unpack, clear the dust bla bla bla. SO SIAN. I just want to watch my comedies on my hard disk.

Anyhoos, I just want to give a shoutout to twitter before I go.#pleasegetwellsoon.icouldntcomplainthroughyouaboutworkbecauseyouaresickandforthatUSUCK!

OK CHIAOZZ!

2011-06-05T10:57:00.003+08:00

As the attachment draws to an end, I can't help but question how much have I learnt in the past 6 months? Application of technical knowledge is close to a zilch, unfortunately. Perhaps its exposure to the different human characters that I gathered most.

There are some who looks up to u based on the education level u have attained. As long as I remain humble, my relationship with them will go well. I have much lesser problem with this group of people, being the listener that I have been trained to be since young.

Meanwhile, there will be those who enjoys testing you with various concepts related to u field. I was doomed when I couldn't answer them. I don't think I will be able to forget the satisfied smirk on his face. Grateful though I was that, people like him slaps me back to reality. TSK

I don't want to get started with the notable difference between the male superior and the female superior. I guess it will make me sound too judgemental just based on the 6 months stint that i had. Simply put, I hope for a male superior for me in the future. Amin =)

From this experience, I can safely say that the aerospace honours degree that I am supposed to graduate with in 1 years time (InsyaAllah) brings both pros and cons. To be fair, this applies to any degree also lah. Anywayssss..

the AEROSPACE name does add a level of prestige to the piece of certificate. At the same time there are expectations from the society from graduates of this course. For instance, I am expected to be extremely savvy with technology. At the very least, my Physics is supposed to be of a solid structure to enable me to explain the concepts of aerodynamics.

Well, working life is scary, I can sense it and have heard alot about it. Shall enjoy what's left of the education system I've been entrapped in so far.

So for now, focus on the final year and have I mentioned FYP?!

OH YEAHHH BABYYY!

2011-04-23T12:26:00.004+08:00

Oh hello and salam!

I have some time at work to ponder read about some political debates raised in view of the upcoming elections - ranging from HDB prices to casinos. I can say that this year the ruling party have a LOT of campaigning and convincing to do. I mentioned to my close friends and family about my strong desire to vote, so here I am praying again that my area will be contested; ie no walkover. I mean, after getting all excited about it, and not needing to vote at the end of the day will totally suck.

On the other hand, if I have to vote, I am still unsure which party i will vote for. For sure, I wont want to spoil my vote because that is a waste of resources (time queuing up, the slip of paper for voting , bla bla bla)! At the same time, I do not want to vote for the opposition just to "follow the crowd". There were some candidates from them that interests me but from what I have learnt, they are not contesting at my area. A change would be good too. Issues like THE CASINO would have been better debated should more opposition have a seat at the parliament. What's the number of jobs available from the creation of THE CASINO compared to the social impact it brings?

Honestly speaking, I do not mind the current ruling party. I feel safe under them. Also, most of the citizen's OTHER rants dont involve me directly - such as the HDB flats; since I'm not getting married anytime soon anyway. This is simply because I am still a non-working adult. Yet, just 2 years on and this will not be the case.

I know that my vote is only 1/ _ _ thousands of ppl but still. I COUNT. And I shall do my part to serve the country well.

So patriotic am I not? :p

2011-03-12T08:38:00.003+08:00

Without lifting a finger, you're holding me back

2011-02-11T10:21:00.001+08:00

Wooooottttsss! Friday again. Just got to know that there’s a possibility of more than 1 person with GPA of 4.99 in the course. Freakyyyyyy!! Wish there’s someone online for me to talk to or that someone would need my help to do a Math paper. It exercises my brain and kept me busy for the day, yesterday. Thanks Regina!

Anyway, since I am free at the moment (technically, not actually cause I need to update my logbook but as I managed to complete one, I shall give myself some time space), I would like to type down my thoughts on Valentine’s Day.

I am thankful for the invention of technology and free time that I have. It allows me to read up on things like this. Valentine’s Day is no other than another commercialized scam. This comes not long after I find out that Christmas is also one of such. It was the bright young minds of my course mates that made me come to such a realization. It makes my brain thinks critically, instead of taking things for granted and accepting them just the way they are. Come to think of it, why only choose this day to commemorate your love for someone? The mass media makes it look like this day is SO special so that we, gullible people, would buy this excuse and start spending our $$ to express our love. Most would not mind the jacked up prices of items, just to “show my love”.And then, who benefits most? The businessmen! See the commercialization scam here?
Then to commemorate Christmas, people buy presents for each other. Same cycle, ain’t it? A friend of mine who is a staunch Christian even admits that she doesn’t celebrate Christmas because according to her, those were not even based on any original teachings other than a concentrated marketing effort.

As I read on about the debate, one response definitely tickled me. This was why a particular couple, and maybe many others choose not to celebrate this occasion: As my spouse has said many times, "If you need a special day to tell me how much you love me, then you must feel awfully guilty the rest of the year. Our love is a 365-day deal." That’s pretty sweet too, if you dwell on it long enough 

The amazing thing is that many, despite being aware of this, choose to see through it and celebrate them anyway. It especially gets frustrating when Muslims youngsters join in the celebrations of V-Day. I suggest they read up the history on this instead of blindly following the trend.

I was once ignorant too. And if it’s possible, I hope that this habit never comes knocking on my door again. For my own good! Amin!

Would you pay to scare yourself?

2011-01-11T12:30:00.003+08:00

Initially the plan was to fly kite at a field near a friend's place but the weather changed the plan. It was more comforting to cuddle in the bed but since I've kinda promised to meet the rest, I dragged my feet out of home. Afterall, its good to socialize. The holidays are making me a bummer, spending 3/4 of the days in front of the computer marathoning HIMYM. I want to talk about that show; another post I suppose or this one will be endless :p

Back to the story, me and my friends went to watch movies instead. The group was divided into 2 : one wanted to watch Tourist while the other , Saw. If you know me well enough, I belong to the second group. My first R21 movie for the record. woooohooo!

Also because, despite having 2 hotties in Tourist, I heard the reviews were not too good. So, yeah. This is not the first time when I go out to watch movies with my friends that there were a few who opposed the idea of paying to scare themselves.Logically speaking, there is nothing wrong with that. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. Furthermore, money would be wasted if all you end up doing is covering your face with your hands and every minute spent on the seat makes you want to leave soon enough. As for me, I enjoy the thrill of the first-s. This, being my first horror I watch in the cinema, totally thrilled me.kental, i know :p

Overall, the movie was merely OK. Nothing that I totally freaked out about or that I will remember for life.Thankfully, its just $6 :S Surprisingly, there were some life lesson that the movie tried to send across. Basically at every juncture, the decisions you make has its cost and effect, in which at times you do not even have enough time weigh the odds. And of course, never lie about anything. Ultimately, when I think over it again, what my friend said was true. The movie was somewhat akin to a porn (not that I've watched one, mind you!) The plot is weak and the major attraction to the show is the gory scenes ( or the sex scenes in the case of porn). Near to the end of the story, those who didnt watch the previous sequels will be lost; me being one of them. Once you get used to the gory scenes, you realise that there is nothing much to the story.Unless if you watch it in 3D like this :

Anyway, just checked my IA information. As it turns out (and truthfully, expected) I will be the only one from the school doing attachment at SAESL and my pay is the minimum amount. Nevermind about that. This was what I opted for and I got it, Alhamdulillah :) I just pray that I will get to learn as much as possible, gain my confidence back( you know school, at times bring my confidence to a whole new LOW level tssskkk) and meet colleagues who treats me as one of theirs, InsyaAllah. :D

Ishalltalktoyousoon:D

In awe

2010-12-27T21:08:00.004+08:00

My aunt decided to treat me and the family, knowing that I am an aerospace student and have not been on board a plane before; must've sounded pretty pathetic, no? hehehe. not anymore now :P

I must be lucky to get the window seat on my maiden flight. All thanks to my aunt for specially booking the seats that are by the window.

I was awed by everything about the flight.
I watched as the plane gained thrust from level ground before propelling the engine to take off. I kept turning to the back window (my window seat was before the wing) with the hope of not missing any single mechanical motion that took place at the slats and flaps. Going up the altitude reminded me of the mini-rollercoaster-Mummy-rides I took at USS :D
I observed the shape of the windows, acknowledging the curved edges which holds the purpose of reducing stresses to the plane.
I thought about the load factor those on board the plane felt as the plane took a banked turn. This makes one feel like they're pulled up from their seat each time the plane turns. Then there were the airflow going over the wing, and of course, the plane as a whole. So many wondersss that came with the motion of the aircraft and I could only explain it with the minimal knowledge I have. Times like this makes me feel glad that I study this field of engineering. :))

Nevermind that the leg room was small :p

Then amidst the clouds when the plane managed to be at a steady straight level, I looked down to the land underneath us. Its amazing how small everything looked like. I couldnt even spot a moving vehicle on the road. What happens to the huge huggee lorries that I was terrified with each time my dad cuts them on the roads? What happens to the flashy, expensive cars? Where are all the human beings? From top, nothing "down there" mattered. Or so it seems. What would that make me when I'm on the ground then? My achievements? Still The One listens to my woes and provide me oxygen F.O.C. All because He cares and loves me. Am I not lucky? hehehe. Thank Youuu. Note to self: Be more appreciative :DD

The clouds fascinated me just as much. Waittt No(!!) it shouldnt be in past times. They still fascinate me! What dictates their size? They are not all of equal sizes. Are they heavy? Or are they light? There's so many wondrous questions that my bank of knowledge will never be sufficient to explain them. Its' really a drop in the ocean.
I tried taking shots of them but there's no photograph that I took that justifies its value.
I will still upload them here anywhere. As a momento of my first flight. :))

And that is why I want to travel the world. InsyaAllah (:

2010-12-24T00:20:00.003+08:00

Finally, Im done with exams for this semester. AND (!!!) no more exams till at least 11 months++

WOOOHOOOO!!! I will get to read fiction books, watch my tv shows (CHUCK!!!), learn swimming ( hopefully I can float now :P), and just do as many things that interest me,as possible. Just maybe I can see where my talent(?) lies, and work on it. I'll see how.

Next semester will be the Industrial Attachment, and I hope that that too will enable me to decide what I want to do prior to graduation. InsyaAllah. All I dream of is to be able to travel the world ((:

Been feeling lost in the midst of the exams, and thankfully I

got some guidance from Him. Now I believe, I know what I should do and what I should not do. I feel safe knowing that I can put full trust in Him when it comes to the future. Alhamdulillah. No worries for now.((:

Anyway after the paper, me and my friends went to watch Tron.

Pretty cool graphics they had there. Im not a die-hard gamer; not even one to start of with, but watching the movie makes me feel that perhaps it would be cool to be "in" a game. Not for a lifetime, perhaps a holiday kinda visit? cz i'll miss my family.hehee. There were a few take points but one that stands out to me was, as quoted :

Sam Flynn: What am I supposed to do?
Siren Jem: Survive.

Simply.

In life, what you have to do is to survive. Think of ways to survive. Be positive about it. Only then will you find the drive to live on :)

All this thoughts running through my head is making it hard for me to sleep. During the exam period, when it was the most crucial time to stay awake to complete the revision, I didnt. Today, when I have no revisions to do, Im wide awake :S

I should totally sleep because I've got a plane to catch tomorrow. Its very near, just Penang, but hey, its my first everrrrr!!! :))

Food for Thought

2010-12-22T10:20:00.004+08:00

"The men who try to do something and fail are infinitely better than those who do nothing and succeed!" -- Llyod Jones

"A ship is safe in harbor, but that's not what ships are for"- William Shedd

bad dayy

2010-12-18T09:58:00.002+08:00

I'm on the verge.

the biggest regret i have at the moment is knowing that i've not given my best for my propulsion paper. it's still bugging me, knowing that the fault lies in me. and I dont expect miracle for this paper, simply because i dont deserve it.

at all.

its hard to push urself to be positive again when after trying, trying and trying, you still did not succeed.

2010-10-20T10:38:00.002+08:00

Its the recess week which of course, didnt feel like any break at all. I feel so suffocated and facebook is boring me out. I need a channel to let out this feeling of being somewhat caged inside, so here i am ranting. It's not helping that I can't pray at the moment and I've not been attending any religious uplifting talks or activities :(((

In the afternoon, I'll be going for a trip to Taman Warisan for the Malay Music Studies elective I'm in. Somehow I dont feel excited about it at all. Cause I am sooo well aware that after that I have a reflection to do. Now Im feeling a tinge of regret for taking the module just because its non-examinable and I have kakis who wanted to take the elective. The classes are BORING and I practically learn nothing practical thus far. Its too slack I can't handle it. I've been trained to have a certain structure for the lessons that i attended that when one dont have it, I feel ... irritated. tskk.

I wanna go out and watch the movies or just slack around Singapore taking looonnngg bus rides but my brain is telling me not to do so because lack of $$$( my dad's pay not in yet and so is mine because I kept pushing my tuition classes) and I KNOW I MUST STUDY and catch up with what I've been putting aside if i really want to graduate with my second. Talking about cause and effect.

Ya Allah, I feel so restless. :(
I love my life and the modules Im taking this semester. Its just that I feel that I am at a stagnation point. I want to get busy, and busy with more than just studying.Maybe play sports or join some volunteery work. But at the same time,Im not confident about my time management.

Perhaps I should open myself up again. Like appearing online and start talking to people again on MSN.

2010-09-13T18:57:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah.

This semester has been good thus far. Definitely, not because the modules are getting easier.

Perhaps what Wei Qin said is true. we sorta got over the culture shock in year 2. pulling through those semesters felt like a feat, in a way.

but im not satisfied with my performance that year.

I made a promise to myself, that I will perform better this year. AMIN. INSYAALLAH.

afterwhich i will reward myself with something tangible. heee and derma $__ to any organisation that needs it :DD

:)))))

2010-08-29T20:43:00.002+08:00

Why do we read Al-Quran, even if we don't understand a single Arabic word?

An old American Muslim lived on a farm in the mountains of eastern Kentucky with his young grandson. Each morning Grandpa was up early sitting at the kitchen table reading his Quran. His grandson wanted to be just like him and tried to imitate him in every way he could. One day the grandson asked, "Grandpa! I try to read the Quran just like you but I don't understand it, and what I do understand I forget as soon as I close the book. What good does reading the Qur'an do?" The Grandfather quietly turned from putting coal in the stove and replied, "Take this coal basket down to the river and bring me back a basket of water. The boy did as he was told, but all the water leaked out before he got back to the house. The grandfather laughed and said, "You'll have to move a little faster next time," and sent him back to the river with the basket to try again. This time the boy ran faster, but again the basket was empty before he returned home. Out of breath, he told his grandfather that it was impossible to carry water in a basket, and he went to get a bucket instead. The old man said, "I don't want a bucket of water; I want a basket of water. You're just aganot trying hard enough," and he went out the door to watch the boy try in. At this point, the boy knew it was impossible, but he wanted to show his grandfather that even if he ran as fast as he could, the water would leak out before he got back to the house. The boy again dipped the basket into river and ran hard, but when he reached his grandfather the basket was again empty. Out of breath, he said, "See Grandpa, it's useless!""So you think it is useless?" The old man said, "Look at the basket." The boy looked at the basket and for the first time realized that the basket was different. It had been transformed from a dirty old coal basket and was now clean, inside and out. Son, that's what happens when you read the Qur'an . You might not understand or remember everything, but when you read it, you will be changed, inside and out when you read time by time . That is the work of Allah in our lives...."

2010-08-21T22:56:00.003+08:00

"Knowledge is not what is memorized, rather it is what is beneficial to you."

Strive for permenance in what you learn, so that it will be beneficial. And there's only one thing that is permanent and that is Allah :D Work towards achieving His rahmah. InsyaAllah.

Check my Niat from time to time. The highest form of Ikhlas is doing something good and not seeing yourself in the person. In other words, you only think of your creator when you're doing something, in this context, seeking knowldege.

Have a clear goal in mind. DO NOT be jack of all trades, master of none.

Intelligence lies in the ability to look beyond what's apparent to the eyes. Look for His signs in Science ;)

Practise the following Adabs when seeking knowledge
1) Beautify yourself with Sunnah
2) Preserve wudu' at all times
3) Be particular about cleanliness and appearance
4) Focus on purifying your soul. Knowledge is a blessing and blessings are not accessible to sinners

The new semester is starting in a week's time. I need to be reminded consistently. Please open more doors for me to attend such inspirational talks and gain as much from it as possible, in the future.

May Allah help us all to be a more Ikhlas person in seeking knowledge, Istiqamah in our niat and increase our Ilmu through understanding so that we can further increase our Iman.
May Allah help us all so that we yearn Your presence more than any other worldly possessions or person .
Amin Amin Amin Ya Rabbal Alamin. :)

YOG awesomeeee experience

2010-08-16T11:36:00.009+08:00

Basically I work as the Information Service Booth (ISB) assistant in the Youth Olympic Village(YOV). The ISB-ians were tasked to handle lost and found items, general information about YOV, and issuing of collectibles for the athletes upon completion the athlete challenges in the village.

Like what one of my ICs mentioned, 'lost and found' is a business on its own. People should really take care of their own stuffs! especially if its a FREE digital concierge we're talking about here :O

Anyyhoos, I got to see the athletes even before their competitions. They may look older than their actual age with their (some of whose are Hawwwtt!! ) figures, but their behaviour DO reflect the teenager in them. heehh :p

And goshh! It feels REALLL good to bum into Muslims from other nationalities. The officials greet you with salams, wished for you a blessed Ramadhan and the athletes are oh-soo-comelss in their tudungs :DD

But of course, there were some difficult-er days. Language barrierrs, stubborn officials (!!), ungrateful people, those who vent their anger on us after failing to get the services/ information they needed bla,bla,blaaaaaaaa. At least, I wasnt one of them volunteers who suffered from the food scandal :\

Giving your service is about keeping your cool. No matter how excited I am seeing the gold medalist, or no matter how high a temperature, my blood is boiling at, I need to keep cool and maintain a smile. And saying : I don't know, at times gives others more consolation instead of beating around the bush and macam paham. :p Indeed, experience is the best teacher.

Alhamdulillah for the opportunity, in this special month of Ramadhan :D

Thank you Sri for pulling me in.

Thank you ISB team 3 for being wonderful teammates. :))

If you've been to the fb group page "I hate the Youth Olympic Games (YOG) committee" and the incident related to it, you'll agree with the Dr 'Wise' that it is impossible to have TOTAL freedom of speech. Afterall, we, human race need to use our heart + brains before giving our opinion. lest, there goes your future :S

HAHAHAHAHA

2010-08-02T23:04:00.004+08:00

totally made my night!!! heheheehehe

9 more days babiess!!

May Allah grant us all iman, health and patience

to go through the month of Ramadhan.

AMIN :DD

di bawah cuaca

2010-07-30T11:32:00.002+08:00

or "under the weather" under direct translation :p

I'm thankful that as a (temporary/part-time) worker, I had to simply pay the doctor a visit and get an M.C. so that I can take the day off to rest well.

What struck me was the fact that if one is a housewife, it's not as simple as that. even when you are sick, you'll have to continue doing the daily chores. there's no annual leave; be it paid or unpaid. So blessed are those who are granted with hubbies or offsprings who are ringan tulang. May that be me, someday. Amin ;D

And, I finally watched Avatar, when the "in thing" now is Despicable Me (tertinggal zamann AGAIN :p). You see, I was never interested in sci-fi movies (no offence to the fans out there, Star Wars movies were major turn-offs for me.heee :o).
Now do i understand what the hype is all about. i thought it was merely the graphics that served as the pull factor, but even the storyline was awesome! It brought up some thought-provoking issues, and i kinda liked that :)

Next, I want to get my hands on '3 idiots'. I heard "all iz well" in the movie :D

Oh! whattheckiswrongwithmeeee?? i miss school :(

2010-07-23T20:52:00.002+08:00

Change of plans.
I'll be continuing my contract till 5th August.

that means i'll be seeing my favourite boy for another week!!! YAYYY :DD

Needless to say, i love all my students. May Allah help them.
I'm especially worried for the P6's.
When we practised oral as a class, in my classroom, they could speak. But, they refused to speak up when we joined class with another teacher - just because they dont like him.
And, he will be their examiner for the upcoming prelims, next week :O

Kids,
I wished you know that you dont always have the opportunity to choose who you want to be/ work with in life. They only way to stop others from belittling you is to prove them wrong. Show them that you can do it. There will always be someone out there who thinks that you are incapable but ignore them. Motivation has to come from within with His help and guidance.
There's just this much an educator can do.

2010-07-18T18:48:00.003+08:00

ISFJ - introversion, sensing, feeling, judgement.

In Myer-Briggs words, people like me are interested in maintaining order and harmony in evey aspect of lives. Quiet, yet people oriented and very observant.
Meanwhile, Keirsey describes ISFJs' as caretakers who are compassionate but unfortunately, their shyness with strangers leads them to be misread as stand-off-ish. :( Only among friends and family are we comfortable to speak freely. Although we enjoy taking care of others, we do not enjoy giving orders.
True much. That best sums up my character.

What's yours?

Providing service to the world will not be easy. But I will try. InsyaAllah.
Come world! We welcome you here :D
"Give 'em the pickle." - Bob Farrell

2010-07-15T19:58:00.002+08:00

"Familiarity breeds fondness" - Sri

Absence makes the heart grow numb-er

could it be a passion?

2010-07-12T21:47:00.003+08:00

Just like what I've always believed in, getting to know you is a blessing in disguise. Alhamdulillah :DD

I've used your template, from writing resumes to the way i e-mailed the schools for the RT post and i think that that's part of the reason i managed to land on the job. Sincerely thanking you friend :))

Thus far, the experiences i gathered out of the 5 days have been enriching. Counting down, I'll be left with about 14 days to teach. MasyaAllah! The students are sooooooo adorable! I've gt some of the boys whose looks, will, insyaAllah turn them into "HAWT stuff" in the future. Haikel, for one, crack me up everydayyyy!! hehehehehe :D
No doubt, ada yang betul-betul mencekik darah. I dont mind students who are not smart and ask me questions but i despise those who think that they know too much; unwilling to share knowledge with their classmates or wait for those slower ones. Then, there are those who are rude and dont take me seriously. That's the disadvantage of, ehem, looking young. I should stop taking it as a compliment from now on :S

Yet, every job comes at a cost and alhamdulillaah so far, it is still tolerable. May this go on fine till the last day of duty.

perhaps, this is what i really want ;D only time will tell.

Ya Allah, terangkanlah hati kami dan berilah kami ilmu yang bermanfaat. AMIN :D

2010-07-03T12:05:00.004+08:00

Of late, my dearest hp have been giving me some problems. It hanged on me once in a while and my parents had advised me to sell it before it loses its value.
I have been very reluctant to so, simply because this phone holds many sentimental values. For one, it was a gift from my daddy for doing fine in the A's. And then, there are the tonnes of text messages that meant ALOT to me, in that phone. There are close to 2000 sms', and each time i tried deleting them off, i'll end up still having 1000+. Afterall, i have smses that dated all the way from mid 2008. teeeheee :DD Somehow, one of the articles written by Sumiko Tan with regards to changing her phone hit me, directly. i can relate to it. :O

On the surface, it does have many scratches and all those were thanks to the "extreme care" that i've given to it thus far. Yet, you, my phone, have served me well for slightly more than 2 years. You've seen me through the happy, hopeful days as well as days when i feel down, frustrated,irritated. You bear witness how great friends and family members i have, who have been there to console & motivate me from time to time. It's time to bid goodbye.

I'm feeling the pain that Andy faces when he parted ways with Woody and his friends :'(
I admit that this heart of mine felt heavy as i deleted off the 'personal' files in my laptop and thumbdrive. I have to, if i truly want to move on with my life. i teared, but it'll be temporary.
afterall, in life, everything is temporary.

2010-06-30T11:07:00.002+08:00

Alterisk appreciation dinner was held yesterday at Costa Sands Downtown East Resort. Alhamdulillah, I believed it was awesome and things went well. MasyaAllah, I missed my team soooo much and was egg-cited for the event :DD I didnt get to meet them for the FOC mock camp simply because i wont be involved in the actual camp :(

Leaving the event early, when the SM and faci's just arrived kinda broke my heart. All because I'm bound to a curfew -- 10 P.M. It got me frustrated at times when "they" ask me time and again, when will i ever be able to stay out late. Why is it so hard for them to understand? "They" kept saying that my parents are strict. Though i agree to it to an extent, I believe that all this is for my own good. So, stop making me feel like its wrong to listen to my parents, make me feel guilty each time i leave early and pressurising me to go against them. It's a choice i've made and i would gladly appreciate if its respected (:

This is not the only time that im faced with such dilemma. and the "they" im referring to, are a HUGE group of people. Perhaps when "they" have their own kids, they will understand it more.

"and if ever, one feels more developed than others, he or she obviously requires further development. for a start, go develop a sense of humility."

2010-06-24T09:33:00.005+08:00

Just for those who are unaware, this time round, my semester break stretches till 30 August, which means that I have effectively about 3 months of holidays, instead of the typically 2. Awesome,I must say!! :DD At the moment, i shall put aside the idea that my year 3 semester 1 lessons+examinations will only end on the 23rd December :p

I've decided to list down the movies that I have watched thus far. Depending on my memory, I might either talk about the plot or the lesson learnt or even both (or neither HAHA). I'm on the mood to train my brain not to rot just because its the holidays :p

In order of what-comes-to-my-head-first:

1) Kuch Kuch Hota Hai
I've wrote about this movie in one of my previous post, so it would be pointless to put it down. I watched this movie again since it was just the start of the holidays and i needed something to start the momentum.

2) Kal Ho Na Ho
Same case as above. Not a boring movie, i would say. Its just too long for me to write it down here. i teared despite knowing the plot. Kental :S

3) Yakeen
Starring my favourite Bollywood actor and actress (based on the looks heeh), Arjun Rampal and Priyanka Chopra, this movie is about a wife who had a scandal as her husband was too busy chasing his dreams as an architect. There were ALOT of twist in the story ( such as the 'husband' who returned from the almost-dead turns out to be her scandal. she ensured that after the accident, her scandal went through a plastic surgery to look just like her husband). It turned out that the lady was psychotic. In the end, her scandal shot her down. Sounds complicated isnt it? What i learnt from here is perhaps the complexity of the brain of the story writer. :p The story keeps you on the edge of your seat, that if you missed a single part of the movie, you might end up lost! Then again, the coincidences in the movie makes you question whether such things can ever occur in real life. too well-planned i must say. Of course, its just another fiction story la huh? :D

4) Aap Ki Khatir
O.M.Allah! I totally couldn't recall what the story is about, not even the actors!! This means that this movie is not impactful enough for my brain to set aside storage space for it. heh

5) Pretty Woman
About the relationship between a prostitute and a high flyer. This movie has been around since early 1990's so, yes,I'm backdated. What i love about this movie is the way it potrays the ugly side of human very effectively. pedasss! The scene I remembered most was the one where Julia Roberts, the prostitute, went to a high-end-goods shop. The first time she went, she was practically sent out as the sales assistants looked down on her just because of her dressing. They were not aware that she had enough money to spend given by the rich(ard gere)man. so after she went shopping with him, she was completely transformed and notice how they treat her now :

typically, shallow human beings. ouch! i make that mistake once in a while too :s

Then there's Click (Adam Sandler), 50 first Date, Prince of Persia(**), Kite Runner (!!!), Toy Story 3 (:DD). If i were to talk about it, this entry would be pages long and i'll not just bore you, but myself too :p. I shall expand my vocabulary before continuing with the others. I believe that the list will expand further, anyway.

so till then, take care! :D

Alhamdulillah.Alterisk.Awesome

2010-06-08T11:11:00.005+08:00

When was the last time i blogged? eons ago. i know its dusty and perhaps no one will read this especially since i've not been updating for way to long :p

Anyhoos, this event is a major one that I must note down.

For the past few weeks, me and a group of 11 adhoc members of the Alterisk team were busy preparing for this camp. I spent almost every single, whole day with these people with the hope of turning the camp into success. We went through a lot of "tooottt"-ness moments such as breaking off partnership, adhoc members who had other commitments and couldnt help for the camp, this being the first time to be held overseas thus, sponsorship was hard to come by and of course, conflict of ideology that arose once in a while between the 11 of us. Things could only be confirmed on the time the camp event happens. So just imagine. At times, even the adhoc members were unsure of what's coming up next and I can tell you, when the faci's came up to ask, and we do not how to answer them, it was embarrassing! :p

Nonetheless, I am happy that at the end of the camp, the participants who were from Madrasah Wak Tanjong , enjoyed themselves and claimed that they learnt alot out of the activities that they went through. They also mentioned that through the camp, they got to bridge the gap between the juniors and seniors of MWTI.

Faci's heard some of the participants sobbing as they went through the nightwalk at Pusara Aman. They felt a sense of repentance in them. During the Oversea Humanitarian Project (OHP), some of them were caught slacking around. The faci's got angry with them. I am aware, though that the campers were exhausted by then for they were not used to doing physical activities. I don't blame both parties as it sure gets frustrating and tiring for the faci's to handle the tasks all by themselves.

After the developmental workshop (which the programmers were worried that it would bore participants to sleep ), we could see their leadership potential coming out. They became initiative and more responsive to the activities. Lesser complains were heard.

The faci's that followed us were really responsible and when things didnt go according to plan, they were the ones who eventually helped us, adhoc to continue running the camp,despite being tired from the camp activities. MasyaAllah. Me and the team couldnt thank them enough. And of course the SM's who helped us during Scavenger Hunt and Nightwalk. Participants had fun during the games and valued the nightwalk thanks to the station masters who made it all possible.

I personally learnt valuable lessons. One that I wouldnt get it in any of my engineering textbooks :p

I learnt the importance of being assertive in the things that I believe in. I have a weakness in which I give in too easily the moment I hear explanations from the other party. And believe me, convincing me with words is pretty easy.

I learnt that numbers are important. Manpower was a key issue that the adhoc team was forced to deal with. Most of us had no choice but to cover each other's jobs before and duing the camp. Due to this, there were times that we couldnt carry our duties as well. I am aware that my camp commandant, the head programmer and head logistics were the most beat person at the end of it. kesian diorang.

I learnt that when we have faith in something, InsyaAllah, things will turn out fine. There were hiccups, there were times that miscommunications surfaced but from the beginning our leader had instilled in us the belief that Allah will be there for us. And this is definitely true. We pull through solely because Allah was there to helped us. why were the faci's and SM's that went throught the camp with us were those people? He knew they would be a great help to us. Why were the participants from MWTI? He knew that these kids are the ones who would benefit most from this camp and MasyaALLAH, the team were thankful for this kids were obedient and much easier to handle :DD
It was through Hist tests that we became stronger as a team and we learnt to make important, wise, impromptu decisions. This skills will definitely come handy when I enter the working world.InsyaALLAH.
For every good or bad that happens, there is/ are hikmah behind it.

ALHAMDULILLAH for the opportunity to be part of Alterisk. Thank you Allah.
Thank you team. Thank you family for understanding my late nights and busyness . I love you all and may Allahe bless all our efforts. Amin :D

2009-11-22T09:59:00.002+08:00

soothing to the ears and soul.masyaAllah ((:

2009-11-21T21:10:00.002+08:00

mummy: ayun tengah main game ke?

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this must've looked very fun to some but, it didnt even make sense to me at first. :P

engineers play with 1's and 0's. good life,no?

14 more days((:

2009-11-16T23:13:00.004+08:00

im feeling very downn. :(( i know i shld be mugging harder now tt its just barely 4 days to the exams but i feel the need to blog this down to make me feel better,insyaAllah.

during the last experiment,which was of course supposed to be the most enjoyable session out of all, me and my grpmates sent in a grp report. little did we know that the rest of the groups sent their reports,individually. only today, when i happened to check my school mail did i notice the mail frm the prof. -and the dateline to submit our individual reports is--- TOMORROW!!

we tried to bargain with him,then things turned out pretty ugly cause he wasnt convinced with our reasoning. and so now the whole group is panicking and irritated tt our respective studying schedules have been disrupted.im pisseddddd!! Ya Allah, my patience wearing off slowly. i know i study better at home.now tt i have to travel alllll the way to boon lay, it means i'll stay in sch longer bcz else, by the time i reach home,thanks to the journey,I'd feel a tad too tired to continue my revision.

Hi All,

I found out of 17 groups you are the ONLY group to submit the common log sheet/sample calculations/report in spite of very clear instruction in the hand out given seeking separate calculations/discussion with common plots! I am certainly not convinced that you got impression from other groups that you can submit one single report.

Anyway I appreciate your present pre-occupation and would go ahead with finalising the marks based on your above input.

He sure sounded unhappy with us. there goes my impression.terang-terangan seekor je budak melayu perempuan for my batch!!!

Ya Rahman, help meeee. :'(( i've been too happy lately (i know it dont seem to be reflected in the previous entry but anywaaayyy),moral of the story is--- LISTEN CAREFULLY TO INSTRUCTIONS.

life is like a circle, if you go round too much you just get dizzy!- hw reflective of the way we handled the situation ie, instead of admitting the mistake, we went to trrryyy to weave our way through. life is tough, and spicy like McSpicy.ok dah start merepek means im back to normal.so bye!
:P

its only the second year

2009-11-13T11:09:00.002+08:00

feeling oh-so-sentimental again. time of the month,i bet. haha.

will i be able to make it on time and finish my revision before the exams?? :(( im worried, so very.

I need a holiday soon. im getting real cranky hence this unimportant,useless entry!:S

as u can see my thoughts, arent focused.

4th December come quick.

err,maybe nt. :

i miss our meaningful conversations.

2009-10-23T20:10:00.002+08:00

YA ALLAH TEGARKAN JIWAKU!:( :D

the one i've been watching many times, and still ROFL! hope it makes you laugh like i did :PP

2009-10-15T23:22:00.004+08:00

Bro Amran sure taught me so much within a span of 3hrs of session we had with him. I've always feel tt the converts and those working with the Muslim converts are special.SubhanAllah. They see the light in Islam more than some of us, including me : we tend to take forgranted of our existence as Muslims sometimes.

He gave us some very thought-provoking questions which I felt would be cool to share.hehe.it must have came from his experience being amongst the convert for more than 10 years as well as talks tt he gave to non-Muslims.and true enough Islam isnt a religion for fools. ;DD

1) If God is full of love, why does He create Hellfire then?
Fire exists on Earth.If we put our fingers near to it or "in" it, we get burnt. a.k.a cari pasal sendiri.Warnings have been placed regarding fire, but still some play with fire. Same case:hellfire is created. if u dont want to get burnt, just dont do the sins and then want to blame all on takdir or say that God is evil.Nauzubillah!
2) Why the need of angels? Isnt He the Most Powerful?
Its for Him to show his powers.That He cld create just anything He wants to.Those that can be seen with the naked eyes and those that remains mysteriously existent:)) Not because He needed any of them.Its for us to think abt the wonders of His creation.
and my fav of all... What is Islam?
The way to ans this is systematic, just like the way we perform our prayers.(See the perfection in the teachings again?SubhanaAllah:DD) firstly explain: the base is monotheism in submission towards Allah and that Prophet Muhammad is the Messenger of Him. Founded on Faith, Amal to prove our faith ( if we take pain to plan surprises for our loved ones to prove ourselves, it just so logically applies to religion:DD-- this is the 5 pilars) and Ikhsan( the concept of Sincerity). from there, then we move to further in depth abt the religion.

Simple questions arent they? but if we are not backed by knowledge, we could waver just by this questions.NAUZUBILLAH.ni blm the kinda questions the others frm othr religions might ask. and in my case, especially the last qn,where do i begin?

Friendly yet, firm, he reminded us again and again, never to bend the rules or compromise when it comes to religious issues. if they say all religion is good just to please the other parties, why not they convert to Islam? stand firm ya,my dears. Dont simply agree when they say that all religion is good :D

May I be given the opportunity to meet such people again in the future,InsyaAllah.The impact he gave me over the time spent was more than the whole..let me see...20 hrs i spend every wk on secular stuffs :P Allah bless him, and all of us. Amin ((:

the ans to the questions are purposely put in white.my explanations are nt as good as his.oh come on! give me face lah.i'm still pratising and there's lotsss, lotttsss more to learn.hehe:PP nonetheless,He knows best. even with tonnes of experience it wont be able to dig out all the secrets and the knowledge that He has. SubhanaAllah.

2009-10-10T22:49:00.009+08:00

Alhamdulillah.
Today's mini open house went well :DD Im so thankful to them who came down namely: David, Kaye, Martin, Feline, Zaf, Nadz, Hajjar, Syamilah, Zawana, Jannah, Nadhirah, Mat Rock, Din, Zul and the MIQ youth wing especially Pija. All them whom I've not met for long, I miss,miss, miss u babes and the hugs i gt from u guys really made me forgt abt CIRCUITS(why do i eventually have to mention this?!) for a day :)) Though my plans to jalan raya was disrupted, it was worth it and, I dont feel the loss of not studying for the day.heh :PPP

Then of course, there was my daddy's friends and Uncle Samad with my cousins. Its good to meet them cousins and have chats with them :DD
I just need to jot this down :
The moment Basitd( one of my friends from MIQ) stepped into my house and saw my cousin Zahier, he asked me who tt was. He wanted to reaffirm the fact tt its his old friend from Millenia Institute. They have lost contacted since my cousin went absent from school. The thing is Basitd wasnt aware that my cousin's eyesight problem gt really bad and he lost his eyesight.Due to that, he didnt manage to complete his studies in MI,then. Watching from "afar", I got touched by the concern and regret I saw on my friends face. Only then was I aware of Basitd's long existence eye retina problem; along the same line as my cousin, just that my dear cousin's one unfortunately gt worst. In whatever view we look at this, have faith that there's a blessing in disguise. It gotta be one of the memorble nights for the 2 long-lost friends and myself ((:

2009-10-02T21:52:00.004+08:00

Tomorrow will be gg back kampung again. nice. i loiiikkee! :DD
just tt i wouldnt appreciate the journey back as much. why? tests,tests, bloody tests. and the one week passed just like that. can i have my 3 months hols again? :

it saddens me that each time i have a plan, there'll be other plans coming up, on the same day, at the same time. cant be helped. it happens too much times and i dont seem to have control over it :(( plus : have my TTFS application been approved? $3K ++ every sem? all the bursary i gt goes back to NTU.this is not funny at all.

hence, December come faster pretty pleasee. i cant wait for my first _____, insyaAllah :))

i love coincidences :DD

(:

2009-09-28T10:29:00.002+08:00

I know that most of us are aware of his history by now, but listening about it again, makes our love for him grow stronger ((:

IAP, thanks for the chance. Alhamdulillah :DD

pause and think

2009-09-15T18:24:00.004+08:00

I got this from a friend's blog. how significant are we in the universe?

dedicated to A.in.sesungguhnya kamu is not selenge :D

2009-09-13T17:11:00.000+08:00

untuk mengelakkan dari perasaan merendah diri dan keselenge-an, saya akan menjelaskan maksud poster tersebut.hee :DD

its actually found on a de-motivators group in Facebook. blogging is redundant for many people ("never before have so many people")because, they post on matters which truthfully dont hold much meaning("with so little to say") but they still do it when not many people read their blogs("said so much to so few").and i believe im guilty of this also :PP

actually the main reason was school but since this is a more interesting excuse, i put it up. hhehehe:DD

i hope that clears the air. Selamat Hari Raya.Mohon ampun dan maaf. ((:

For enquiries, call 1800-aku-masih-tak-faham.

2009-09-12T10:28:00.003+08:00

hmm...where shall i start? ages since i blogged,got to admit tt :P first things first, i shall avoid talking about school because its rosy, NOT.heh.

Recently, I've been hearing news on deaths :( sudden ones that is. And a good friend of dad just got news that she's left with 8 months. Hw would u react should u be faced with that news? When u learn in school, u do use your brains but it's basically for the paper chase. the kiasu-ism and all that school brings about tends to make me forget that there's something more worthy waiting for me. I do not want to work and work and work and work and suddenly, I am sixty!! Life would feel empty.Islam is the only thing that constantly keeps me sane, knowing that everything here is temporary. Alhamdulillah ((: Yet, I feel that Ramadhan just whooshh-ed past me. I know I haven't done much this Ramadhan, sadly.and Im missing MIQ to bits :(((

Last Thurs, I buka-ed puasa with Hajjar. We packed some food and went to her workplace which is Z_ _ _ _ Kindergaten. not hard to guess :P but since its supposed to be discreet, I shall keep them blanked. anw, anw the school is pretty cool! its under tunnel and I've gotta admit that I was really jakun. It's a I-feel-like-home kinda school.Uber cool-ness!! Thanks for bringing me to that place.I just love this woman and I know she loves me too.heee :DD May your journey go smoothly, InsyaAllah ((:

here's a raya song for your entertainment,ppl. fyi, i sang it during my kindergaten raya celebration. as the lead singer. and then pelat. "mohon ampun dan resKu" for as long as that phrase is repeated,i'll keep saying it wrongly but i ignore them ppl laughing at me. cute right? i know :P

and the reason i've not been blogging much:

surWey he will take to his grave ;D

2009-08-10T16:25:00.000+08:00

skip to around 2.00 minutes.totally hilarious.HAHAHAHAHA:DD

people like you make me get very excited for the upcoming semester ((:

I care.

2009-08-08T16:22:00.000+08:00

It may seem that Im ignorant of the situation.I dont voice it out,not because of the Singapore education system( if you get what i mean), hence I 'learn' to follow blindly. Out of respect for the elders, I decide to keep mum about it.I have not been against the idea all this while,anyway.

I dont take sides simply based on which part of Singapore Im located at. Its totally unfair to group people based on the location.oh! tt's the bedok ppl,tt's the ang mo kio ppl..... can we just stop this nonsense?can we stop trying to influence others to join our sides?and for the record, not taking sides doesnt mean Im indecisive. i've beeen taught to always hear both sides, weigh the consequences first before making any decision or making any statement. I try my best to think before I speak although undoubtedly,ada kalanya, terlepas jugak sebab dah terlalu geram. al-maklumlah , humans err.
we are living in a community.who says you can simply ignore the feeling of others? pasallah orang nak fikir apa, janji opinion aku didengar? why so? where have the sensitivity towards others gone to? kalau semua nak tegakkan ego sendiri, masing-masing hanya punya prasangka buruk tehadap yang lain, bila mau game dah? :S

I may not be around during the actual event but trust me, I support the idea.i would've been there provided i have nothing on. i believe the effort made to bring the entire family closer should be commended. we didnt initiate the idea; no harm supporting the one who dares to make the first step ((:

please, Im tired! this have been going on for years. I hope there's mutual respect towards each other, no more holding grudges or such. True enough, its not easy to practic(/s)e what u preach but try. its worth it. Misunderstandings is a part of life but no, dont keep it too long. Kita tak tahu siapa di antara kita nanti yg blh membantu kita di akhirat. so, please, please, reduce hatred.spend more time on loving others.

2009-08-06T11:39:00.000+08:00

my sis is going through the test as a teacher.it wasnt this hard when she was a relief teacher for the secondary students.now,with primary students,they make her blood-go-upstairs!masyaAllah!some of them will be caned sometime today.hw much tt will change them? you figure that out :SS

there's no reason for me to be nervous but i am.i have just set my mind to put things aside but each time i do so, there'll be something else that brings me back to square one :|

2009-08-03T10:21:00.000+08:00

FOC was a blast! really have to congratulate the ad-hoc comm for putting so much hardwork and of course the results shows.plus this year the campers were energetic,willingly imitating animals and making a ,ehem,fool of themselves.heee.afterall camps are abt letting loose,kn? :DD

i am not ready to accept the fact that schools just a week away and the lecturers have started to upload those notes and tutorials.i need to get my focus back if i want to make "it" happen.the points have to either stay within the current range or go up. else,its going to be pretty tough for me to graduate with Honours :S

oh ya!there's antr muslim female junior in aero.yayyy!!i have company now :DD

being home alone at the moment while waiting for the arrival of mummy's mother cum atuk,im inspired to watch Macaulay Culkin's Home Alone. till then take care all ((: i'll be gone for good.

the whole life with all its gold,silver and wealth is not worthy for one tear from you:)

2009-07-28T12:08:00.000+08:00

blogger is irritating me now!

lately my plans have been disrupted here and there.i wont elaborate on much but one of them would be missing the union between my ustaz and his future wife next Friday,InsyaAllah. His fiancee happens to be my cousin's best friend.i bet she'll be there togther with Saffiyah baby!missing all that:| Hopefully I'll be able to make it for the persandingan in September,InsyaAllah :DD

3 August come quick! maternal side granny will be staying over for a week. been almost 2 years since she came over. all because IT costs 300RM. unjustifiable price to me :P

2009-07-08T09:06:00.002+08:00

tried staying awake to watch MJ's memorial service but 1 hour away from the "show",I find myself treasuring sleep more :PP

im pretty much guilty of a thing: admiring MJ only after his death.
not that i believe the media when the court cases surfaced about him sexually assaulting children or i disliked him .its just that, i wasnt a big fan,back then. his death kinda made me curious and read more on him,watched his interviews and music videos. i have to agree that he was the music icon of our generation and he was a gentleman,in my eyes. How many artiste today would really think of the poor children in the midst of their popularity?You'd prolly say Angelina Jolie but oh well,its just not the same innit?

The way he talks,with a whispering voice and his willingness to forgive despite being bombarded with slanders..ouhh hw amazing :

An elder told me,given about 3 years,this wave would die down.unlike our dearest prophet (p.b.u.h) who lived in the hearts of many till today.that too,with none of us here even had the chance of seeing him.thinking back, tt's truly AMAZING .SubhanAllah :DD

As for now,MJ's burial still remains a mystery to the media.agak2 kenapa secretive sangat eh? are u thinking what im thinking?

2009-07-02T15:38:00.000+08:00

AMK-BEDOK-WOODLANDS-YCK

2009-07-01T21:12:00.007+08:00

i love longgg bus rides :DD simply because of the fact tt going out and exploring new places are done with minimum spending ((: Since both bus and train concession have been bought,i might as well travel around spore and enjoy the "scenery" this concrete-jungle-city can offer. only thing to consider is prolly food,which still can be cut down by going out only after lunch and try to be back home for Asar.

So,that was how i spent the week thus far; with pheef.thank God she loves such trips.in fact, she downloaded a movie on her lappy and brought it on the bus during a separate occasion,once.i know hw it may be perceived as a boring activity to many.i still love it.why?its economical and you can really enjoy the time with a good friend,unlike going for movies.heee :P just my opinion. ignore if u disagree :DD

Fri-Sun 3.7.09-5.7.09 mock day camp
Thurs 9.7.09 picnic+sports day at WCP with AMKsian!this will be lovely and fun! I CAN'T WAIT!! ((:

travelling overseas sounds really fun.what more,on train and plane.it'll be my first time for both :DD then of course,you have to understand my parents worries. maybe,just maybe,its allowed, if its for a graduation trip etc.meanwhile its better to stock up my bank account. ;D

there's always "the first time"

2009-06-27T19:46:00.006+08:00

so there was this first time that i played futsal; today.and tt was to represent MIQ for a competition.mcm iyer2.padahal NO experience.NO knowledge of the rules.only thing i was aware of thus far,is tt the pitches are sheltered.thanks to "Gol dan Gincu".heh:PP

nonetheless, neither losing nor winning the first round(ie DRAW :D) felt like a tremendous feat.

subsequently, we lost the other two rounds but heck(!) i enjoyed this first experience. its worth sweating it out and turning the cheeks reddish.heeee :DD (just pretend that i am fair lah eh.no harm entertaining me:P)

and yest was the first time i met up with dayah after two years ++ :DD if u remember her, she was one of the competitors me,hajjar and syamilah faced during our pantun competition,the one who represented Wak Tanjong along with Alimah and Salehan :)) it feels good to know tt we still keep in touch with each other. I was worried tt we might not have much things to say and the possible outcome of "awkward silences". then of course,it turned otherwise and though admittedly,there were silent moments,its the "comfortable silence" :))) she was the one who guided me ard Esplanade and then we just sat by the river just outside Moulana Mosque,slurping Ice Lemon Tea :DD one of the best ways to meet up with friends is definitely when you can spend as little $$ as possible but leaving with sooo much satisfaction after that.like sitting at the playground and sharing a pacekt of iced milo with kaya toast (kpd sesiapa yg berkenaan tu;P)

i will miss you,Dee and really hope to see you again.May Allah bless our friendship(((:

2009-06-25T21:57:00.003+08:00

Its a wrong choice.

Starting on another korean drama is truly a wrong choice.im turning into an EMO person))':
im wasting buckets of unnecesssary tears.that too on a 7-year-old drama:P

"Sometimes,without realizing it, a thread from your heart goes out to someone.
I don't know where the thread will end up, but once it leaves your heart,you can't bring it back"--- Winter Sonata.

Okay enough of jiwang-ness!Toughen yourself and stop being a kememe,will you:P

just another post

2009-06-22T15:56:00.003+08:00

Try this!

Google/Yahoo up your name. You may be surprised by what you discover.I've got a pleasant surprise myself :PP

on another note, this tuesday night, after Maghrib that is,will be the night of 1st Rejab.malam doa tidak ditolak.so ask for anything that you desire,and if its indeed the best for you,no worries,you'll get it InsyaAllah:DD

just sharing a tiny-bit of info that I know :PP

2009-06-16T09:20:00.003+08:00

3 sets of 30 skips each per day.
that's the aim i have at the moment. :DD I had been thinking of the best possible exercise and CL gave me this marvellous idea.to go jogging in the neighbourhood, Im afraid I'd be too tired to do household chores(not that I do all of them on my own anyway:P) cycling at ECP would mean spending $$$.not to exercise totally would be bad for health.so, using the kampung style I made my own skipping rope made up of rubber bands, with mummy's help((: jangan hangat2 tahi ayam je :P

my all time favourite short film video.ENJOY!:DD

2009-06-03T21:12:00.002+08:00

The rawkiest time spent in my learning journey thus far was with you guys!!Plus you, Hajjar though you weren't there on Tues night!(we must meet up soon and have tt KFC meal together :DD) We all wished that time coomes to a stand still but then of course,such things dont happen:P precisely because, otherwise we would take these moments forgranted:))

May we all succeed in our various fields, Insya-Allah,and lead a blessed life (((: ILY all :DD

Yesterday marked the last lesson for CS119."The Wizard of Oz" was screened.This movie is pure awesome-ness.Im talking about the 1930 version. It was during the Great Depression period and there's Dorothy who wished that she could escape to a place with no problems.A twister came and "took" her away to this place called Oz. Without her family and friends around her,the wonderful place didnt seem as interesting and attractive anymore.To get back to Kansas,she had to make her way to Emerald City and meet the amazing wizrad. On her way there, she met the scarecrow who wished for a brain, the tin man who wished for a heart, and the Lion which needed courage. eventually met the wizard and found out tt it was an ordinary man. Their wishes were still granted.how so?simply prep talk from the "wizard" to make them realise that it was something that they had all this while. it is about believing in yourself :DDD

You see..it teaches us about the importance of having your friends and family around,that the grass always appears greener on the other side,that having a heart, brain and courage were among the more important tools in facing the challenges in life.If only, i could find the video in which the scene at the wizard's house was shot,it'd be better than hearing from a mediocre(or even poor?:P) English writer like me:P

2009-06-01T07:48:00.001+08:00

first time i sat down watching this movie.that too because of CS 119.otherwise, I would've missed this exciting scene throughout my life.al-maklum jarang sgt tgk wayang.haha.

2009-05-31T19:55:00.005+08:00

ooppss sorry kene teleng kepala sikit eh:P

finally, i managed to squeeze a session out with my coursemates!!:DD we went to RSAF airforce Museum.Saw the ad on the newspaper on Thurs and rushed the plan on Fri and Saturday. It was supposed to commemorate International Museums Day and i totally forgt it was mainly targetted for families to go together. When we were there do we notice that most of them were parents with their children.heh.kinda selenge on my part as the organizer,no?:PP other than the display of RSAF skyhawks and other planes, there wasnt anything much going on.pretty frustrating on tt part.thought there would be some air show nonetheless its just a museum visit.cant expect much, innnit?still, it spells F.U.N.

Great way to hang out with David and Yazeed!Man,you guys made my day :DD It was really interesting to hear about your respective NS days- the pride of every Singaporean MAN'S life.:DD I wished I could go through the experience of making friends and learn the meaning of life beyond textbooks. I didnt contribute much in the conversation but I honestly enjoyed their stories and the company :)

and oh wonderful discovery; we are all Saggi babies:DD counting down to girls hang out at ZamZam,next!:))

24/7 Job

2009-05-26T11:24:00.006+08:00

Spending time at kampung have always been my favourite.:D sadly, we spent barely three days there. going on Fri afternoon, have a kenduri on Saturday, and come back to Singapore on Sunday morning.

but this short days spent in my grandmum's home was enough to leave me awed by this aunty of mine. She's a real SUPERWOMAN,SUPERHUMAN, whatever you wanna call her lah eh :DD ever since she gt married to my uncle, she looked after the house just like her own's. she'll wake up early to cook for the family, wash the clothes,sweep the floor...yada yada and then prepare of for work. till now, it sounds like any typical story of a housewife,right?I shall continue. thereafter, she'll prepare for work and mind you, it's a factory worker job.We all know how tiring it is to work in a factory.plus only one day's off per week. When she get back from work, she serves her husband. Not forgetting,that Saturday , we had a family gathering and despite just coming back from work, she lend her hand for the kenduri. Her energy is simply amazing,don't you think so? I dont think I will ever be able to do both household chore and working, well simultaneously. Im not good at multi-tasking,just okay.heeee :PP

Even my mum is able to balance household chores and thinking of different ways to supplement the income of the family. During the holidays do I realize how tough it is just even being a housewife. The whole idea of cooking stress them up actually.lauk apa?is it healthy and balanced for the entire family? have it always been the same dish? mcm2 nk fikir!

It's tough and so I asked mummy for the tip.She simply put it,"Ingat ni semua saham akhirat.Ikhlaskan and you'll be able to serve your family well." WOOOAAHHH! :DDD

we both know you are the more innocent one:DD

2009-05-18T22:44:00.002+08:00

i chanced upon a blog entry which stated smtg tt left me dumbfounded:

About a 100 years ago,people said that when a black man became a president, pigs would fly.
And on the 100th day of Barrack Obama's presidency,the swine flew.

HAHHHAA :DD tulah,ckp jgn sembarang cakap,jadi doa!:P

2009-05-12T12:52:00.002+08:00

live each day such that there will be at least one moment that you can smile about :DD

I.T.Q.A.N

2009-04-27T21:07:00.005+08:00

Masya-Allah.I learnt soooo much in this camp that I dont think i'll ever find enough time to put them all in here. In short, the acronym stands for :-

I -Integrity

T -Teamwork

Q -Quwwah

A -Ambassadorship

N -New Age

Well,maybe I shall share the highlight of the camp:) heh. For the last part of the camp, we had an activity of mind travelling which was mind-blowing :) this is how it goes. the room was darkened and the whole pack was made to close their eyes. we had to try to imagine the scenario as vividly as possible.The trainer, Brother Razak narrated a whole life story for us, from the time we celebrated our fifth birthday, on how our parents doted on us,sending us to primary school and eventually till university,how our parents worked overtime, our mothers taking sewing to earn extra money just to see to our education but once we became successful,we got too busy and only had once in say, every 2-3 months to visit our parents.for all we know, we are on the way to our graveyard.At that tym, we hoped for another 5 minutes,just five to repay back our parents debts, to focus more on our ibadahs and all but it was too late. only darkness and the smell of ground accompanied us....just imagine. can u tell the sound of people sobbing at the end of the whole session? regardless of male or female participants,we all teared. Subhanallah,very enlightening.
The ukhuwah built between the sisters and brothers from the NEMC(North East Mosque Cluster) namely, Darul Ghufran,Al- Istiqamah, En-Naeem and Al- Istighfar is (Subhanallah:DD) strong despite knowing each other for barely 3 days:DD praying jamaah for every single waktu thorughout the camp was a completely new experience :DD before this,even if i were to go for a muslim organised camp, we only prayed as a congregation for at most 3/5 times together. May Allah bless us all and help us through our efforts.May the ukhuwah lasts till Jannah,insyaallah:DD

credits to Ustaz Izhar for sending me for the camp,MUIS for subsidizing the cost,MIQ for further reducing the cost(heh:D its original cost is $400! down to only 10 bucks:DD) and my parents for consenting me to go:)) just like OBS and YLC,this camp will be ingraved in my memory for as long as i can remember,insya-Allah:D

the wake up call:D

2009-04-17T12:39:00.003+08:00

i know i should be concentrating on my exams but well, taking time off for relaxation is no harm right?;D She is such an inspiration for many of us!Watch how people laughed at her during the start and how the clip ended!:DD So if people are making fun of ur dreams, ignore them.Just pray hard, step forward on the right path, and Allah's willing,if its best for you,you will make in BIG.JUST LIKE SUSAN BOYLE!!
Voice of an Angel - The most amazing videos are a click away

This is BROTHERHOOD!:DD

2009-04-10T17:35:00.000+08:00

2009-04-02T14:49:00.003+08:00

why are we learning

sooooooooooo much when the exams are just 13 days away???

IM TOTALLY PISSED WITH THE EDUCATION SYSTEM!!!

heh.just some anger management problems at the moment.rather than shouting at human beings who has feelings,i shall rant it out on this site.okay.better now.:DDD

back to mug..

just for smiless and laughterss :DD

2009-04-01T00:57:00.001+08:00

Matters of the Heart

2009-03-29T19:54:00.007+08:00

i've always enjoyed my sunday classes.tired i may be, sleepy i may be,but i will eventually leave the class with a sense of fulfillment; that i've learnt something for the day,alhamdulillah:DD plus of course, the wonderful classmates i have.friends whom i've been togtr with since primary school days!!:DD

back on track,during my first lesson, my teacher told us to list down 10 ways to make our ibadah/amal pure and sincerely done.tt wasnt gonna be difficult,i thought.

but YES!
tt was initially.to really pen it down proved to be a challenge.why so?? listing down reasons and ways to do something have by far been a simple task for urself kan ayun? so why does it take extra effort to squeeze my brain cells to come up with just 10?was it the number?was i not focusing or...is it due to the possiblity that the amount of energy i put on keikhlasan for my ibadah have been limited?sadly i would have to agree to the latter.i tend to forget to cleanse my heart regularly ;'(

ibadah as we all are aware of,includes almost every activity done that could reap benefits out of it with the ultimate reason of pleasing Allah. unfortunately for me,i complain.complain about household chores.complain about the process of studying and even at times, procrastinate my prayers:'( there was a period of time when my family went through a huge test and tt was when i actually focused more in my prayers.i cant wait to talk to Him again from one waktu to the other.why do I lose all this? dont tell me only through tough times will u really truly rmbr Him,ayun?! :'(

Cause unlike obvious sins like murder, pre-marital sex etc, sins within ourselves,sins linked to the issues of heart cant be seen by others for them to right us.this makes the syaithan easier to penetrate and disturb.no one knows what's gg on in tt inner voice of urs. we all need constant reminders along with prayers and LOOOADDSS of His help and guidance,insyaallah ((:

2009-03-24T20:03:00.009+08:00

finally,im done with the glider project.phew!:DD alhamdullillah.

though my group isnt the best out of the four,we are not the last either.tt is satisfying enough for me.heee:DD i've always loved being in the middle range.it feels like i gt the best out of both worlds,if you get what im trying to say:)

there was two components tt we had to focused on:

1) Distance flight

2) Precision landing

we did better for the distance flight but the others were even better.my leader was pretty confident tt we could hit the wall on the other side of the lab but thanks to the blades of the helicopter model in the hanger, we couldnt reach the wall.hahaa!:DD it crashed onto the wing.DDAANNGG!!

being in this course makes me humble and aware tt there are soo many ppl out there who are many times more knowledgeable and experienced than i am;)) all this makes me see more reasons why im in here.HE have known tt its the best for me.i may not be on par with them in terms of intellectual but i sure believe i that i learn to adapt to totally new group of ppl- ones who i consider as elitists.alhamdulillah((: just tt i pray tt i'll be able to garner enough stretngth to get through the 4 yrs,insya-allah.

and working with a majority-guys-group have really been a great pleasure.really.in a way,i feel pampered too.hahaha :DD they would voluntarily do the technical stuffs while leaving the reports to me and my other girlfriend in the group.hee:DD at some point in time when we both dont know what to include in the report, they wouldnt mind chipping in :) i know this is possibly bad for my future and it makes me feel like a free rider once in a while but i shalt not bother about such matters,yet.hehh:PP i say,"Put your ego aside and everyone will be able to work well hand in hand:D" ,no?

2009-03-18T09:20:00.004+08:00

over the years of learning mathematics, i notice a trend. the number of times that I actually use real numbers for calculations just get lesser.i used to have this mindset tt maths = playing with numbers. and so i went to wiki to find the exact definition of Mathematics.HAHAA!:DD i do spend my time well eh,googling unimportant stuffs when the exams are 22 more days. GGGAHHH!!! :P

Check this out, the definition of Mathematics:

1) "the subject in which we never know what we are talking about, nor whether what we are saying is true.”[2] Bertrand Russell(he is a mathematician and HE said this.ha!:)

2)"A mathematician is a blind man in a dark room looking for a black cat which isn't there." Charles Darwin

LOLL!! :DD

my buddy have been asking me to go for exchange programme with her.it wld be a gr8 experience, nonetheless but the criteria..gossh!!

me: u need to be active in cca or smtg right?

k: not really.but u need to score a GPA of about 4,i guess

me: well,im not even at 4 or even 3.5 :

k: its ok!this sem you score 5. I'll also score 5.We both must score 5!

me: HAHAHAHA(*with the widest grin on my face*:DDD)

i feel motivated but no harm if i mention here tt though i dream big,i dont expect myself to leap far in just a step,:P

maybe, im just gonna take it like the one in which i went for the interview for my cambodia humanitarian trip.if its meant to be,it'll be.else nevermind bout it.it just means its the best option for me.:))) at the very least try.

quote of the day: LIFE IS A DRAWING WITH NO ERASER.((:
which i feel meant: Life will eventually turn out to be a picture.(if u choose to end it tt way) for each drawing,each line u draw,it'll either contribute to make the picture beautiful-er or worst. knowing tt there's no eraser,humans should try their bestest to minimize their mistakes so tt the drawing will look good.even if a wrong stroke(s) is/was/are/were drawn, all we need to do is use our creativity to rectify the mistake and make it look good again.

tt's my anaylsis of the quote found on a slideshow presentation by Dr Fatimah Lateef. hehe.:DD im trying to use the malay lit knowledge tt i used to have and my mediocre-and-deproving english mastery.i've kinda lost touch with "read-between-the-lines" stuffs for about a year now.HA!it feels good to get away frm phy and maths for a while.hehh:D
dont forget your smiles ppl!:DDD

www.quizbox.com

2009-03-14T00:01:00.004+08:00

Here is the analysis:
1)You are a very serious person. You tend to be quiet and well behaved, and you don't have a great deal of self-confidence. You prefer to be alone rather than with friends and that could make you a little less interesting to certain types of guys. You are very attractive in an individual kind of way, and this means it can take people a little while to get to like you.

2)You don't really care about other people's feelings. You do things the way you want and usually think only about yourself. You are easy-going and love to have fun, but you can be irresponsible as well. You are not keen on serious discussions because they can make you remember that life isn't always about parties.
You are a bright, cheerful and bubbly person. You are thoughtful and considerate, and like to have fun. Everybody feels comfortable around you because of your pleasant nature. When you walk into a room, people's eyes are likely to be drawn to you because of your charm.

3)Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.

4)You revel in isolation. You follow a simple lifestyle, and are gentle and hard working. You don't care much about what others have to say. Sometimes their comments hurt your feelings but you just ignore them and get on with your life.

2009-03-06T21:13:00.002+08:00

trust me!
this paper plane flew better than what my glider did so far.and we even had servo's on it.
2 more weeks to the competition & yet,sooo many touch-ups need to be done on our project baby DD:

did i say u made my day.Hee!!;D

2009-03-02T20:32:00.002+08:00

im not in any way related to either the student who committed suicide or the lecturer who was stabbed.still,i feel for the family.i dunno to whom i wanna say i feel sorry for,but i just feel it :((

NTU’s final year engineering student stabs professor
SINGAPORE: A Nanyang Technological University (NTU) spokesman had confirmed that a final year student from the School of Electrical and Electronics Engineering stabbed a professor Monday morning.
The professor at the engineering faculty was in his office when the student stabbed him with a knife in the back.
Prof Chan Kap Luk, a Singaporean in his 40s, is said to be the supervisor of the fourth year student in a project.
After stabbing the professor, the male student — who was in his 20s — slit his wrists and jumped down a building at the engineering block.
His body was found at the bottom of the building, which was about five storeys high. He died from his injuries.

source: http://sg.news.yahoo.com/cna/20090302/tap-450-stabbing-nanyang-technological-u-231650b.html

NTU President then sent us all an email as follows:

Dear Faculty, Staff and Students of NTU,

It is with a heavy heart that I inform you of a tragic incident on campus. A final year student from the electrical and electronic engineering school attacked a professor this morning, 2 March 2009. The student subsequently fell off the linkway between S1 and the Research Technoplaza and passed away. The next-of-kin of the student and professor have been notified. Out of respect for the parents of the student, the university will release names officially after the parents have been informed face-to-face of the full details. The professor is receiving medical treatment for his injuries.

We are all deeply shocked and saddened by what has happened. The matter will be investigated thoroughly. I urge the university community to rally together at this difficult time and do our utmost to help the student’s family, the professor and his family, and those traumatised by the incident.

DR SU GUANING
PRESIDENT

i realised tt my past few entries have been of a cheerless, dejected, despairing, despondent, disconsolate, dismal, distressed, doleful, down, down in dumps, down in mouth, downcast, forlorn, gloomy, glum, grief-stricken, grieved, heartbroken, heartsick, heavyhearted posts...ok, i copied pasted from the thesaurus:PP

nevertheless, dont get too worked up even if u feel tt the world is falling apart from u.rmbr u r not alone.He's always with us(: trust tt n life gets soo much better,and in a way more satisfying,insyaalah((: a reminder for myself as well :P

Mr "Microsoft" :'(

2009-03-01T07:37:00.004+08:00

today will be the first time i'll be going for the wake of a friend's.

i was watching a Tamil movie when my phone's message tone was heard.i ignored it until antr message came,(feeling irritated at first for being disturbed of my time watching the movie) then, did i read the msg. the first thing i saw was his name "Konstantin Tarasov".as i read on, my heart felt heavy.he actually fought leukemia for two years already.i knew nuts about it.yet,i will rmbr him as the guy...

...who used to tease me about my name.
...who said my name sounded like a Russian word which holds the meaning of chicken.haa:D
...who sang togtr with his bestfriend,Krish the song " I believe I can fly..kepak,kepak,kepak(flapping their hands as though its an imaginary wing:D)to me. its the soundtrack used for the basketball movie which starred Michael Jordon.
...who was among the lepak kakis during Mother Tongue lesson in the library along wif Siva,Mus,Krish,Kyi,Aditi
...who had gr8 talent in drawing

most of us only managed to gt in touch with him via Facebook recently.little did we know tt its the possible last moments for us.we may not have been the bestest or closest of friends.still,his name have been among those in my memory.

kalo aku sendiri dh rasa sedih gini,wad more his family, his best buddies? Krish,among others,i saw his fb status stated "Krish has just lost a bestfriend" :'(..i hope he'll be strong.

too many morals tt i can gain from here.when time permits,i'll blog it down.for now,i have to rush for a class.

take care all.:)

im not lying when i said i suddenly thought of him and Krish around maghrib.was it a mere coincidence or a sign tt i should've taken seriously?wallahualam.

What is this?

2009-02-17T23:22:00.003+08:00

Some seeds can stay in water for a long time. There are even seeds which can remain in water for as long as 80 days without germinating or spoiling. The most famous of these is the coconut. For the coconut seed to be transported in safety, it is placed within a very hard shell. Everything needed for a long journey, a supply of rich food and a half-a-pint or so of water, is ready inside it. On the outside, it is fitted with a fibre float that keeps it on the surface of the water.
As seen from this example, the most important property of plants which multiply by using water as a vehicle is that the seeds germinate only when they reach dry land. Actually, this is a most interesting and exceptional situation, because as we know, plant seeds usually begin to germinate as soon as they come into contact with water. But this does not apply to these particular plants. Because of the particular structure of their seeds, plants which disperse their seeds by water do not abide by this rule. If these plants began to germinate as soon as they came into contact with water, as other plants do, they would long since have died out. Whereas these plants are able to survive by reason of general mechanisms suited to the conditions in which they live.
All plants in the world possess the structures best suited to them. These exceptional features bring to mind the question: "How is it that such resistance should have come about in just those species of plants which need it?" Let us take an example-the coconut is the answer to this question:

1.Palm seeds will need a resistant structure in order to be able to spend a long time in water, and for this reason their shells are quite hard. The shells also have water-resistant properties.
This is not a coincidence!

2.They will need more nourishment than normal on their long journeys, and the exact quantity of food necessary is placed inside the coconut seed-package.
This too is not the work of coincidence!

3.They open the moment they "know" they have arrived on dry land.
There is no way this is a coincidence!
All these fine calculations and measurements were flawlessly carried out by God, who created the seeds, who knows all their needs and characteristics, and who possesses infinite knowledge and intelligence.
Everything has its measure with Him. (Surah ar-Ra'd: 8)

for more interesting scientific discoveries : http://www.harunyahya.com/ :DD

The World Today

2009-02-16T19:21:00.003+08:00

reporter: What will you do financially?(to support the baby)

Alfie : What's fincancially?

well,what can i say? u decide.

2009-01-24T09:39:00.004+08:00

he understood fully the meaning of the ayats in Quran.subhanaallah.as a born Muslim,how much of the content the Quran do I noe? :(

and in the midst of celebrating CNY, Muslims admire(s/d) the power of Him-the solar eclipse tt occured btwn Asar and Maghrib just now.

Let's not waste the efforts of the Muslim scholars.

2009-01-09T13:50:00.004+08:00

Scientific method

Muslim scientists placed a greater emphasis on experimentation than previous ancient civilizations (for example, Greek philosophy placed a greater emphasis on rationality rather than empiricism),[11][14] which was due to the emphasis on empirical observation found in the Qur'an and Sunnah,[68][69][70][71] and the rigorous historical methods established in the science of hadith.[68] Muslim scientists thus combined precise observation, controlled experiment and careful records[14] with a new[11] approach to scientific inquiry which led to the development of the scientific method.[72] In particular, the empirical observations and experiments of Ibn al-Haytham (Alhacen) in his Book of Optics (1021) is seen as the beginning of the modern scientific method,[73] which he first introduced to optics and psychology. Rosanna Gorini writes:
"According to the majority of the historians al-Haytham was the pioneer of the modern scientific method. With his book he changed the meaning of the term optics and established experiments as the norm of proof in the field. His investigations are based not on abstract theories, but on experimental evidences and his experiments were systematic and repeatable."[72]

cheers to the wonderfluous teachings of Islam!!SUBHANALLAH.

this is just a portion.There's tonness of other examples.do read them up and get inspired (((((:

and,

lets also not forgt to pray for our fellow Muslims in Palestine.Al-Fateha.

May they be granted strength in gg through this difficult time and may the sufferings end soon.

im sure everyone of us feel their pain.this heart aches and eyes watered as we watch the blasts that took place. :'(

how could u make them stay in a place and blast the place 24 hours later with children trapped inside?isnt it obvious tt its all planned? and u r denying it,now?!! cruelty is inevitable,huh?cant put those ego aside,huh? i just dont understand!:(((

see how much Islam taught us unity.MASYALLAH.its never just only abt u.. :)

2008-12-30T20:41:00.003+08:00

Salam Ma'al Hijrah all!!a new year marks a new beginning :DD

this week have been,by far,the busiest week throughout the Dec holidays.it

started of wif the completion of my project.any guesses?? hee...its project menjahit baju kurung.hee:)) i managed to complete 80% of the suit,sewn it by myself wif the help of the machine and of course the jahit-baju-guru,none other than my MOM :DD

then,it was date wif Hajjar at Yishun Northpoint :)) the renovations had certainly done yishun-ers a favour.i still think tt AMK Hub scores low among the neighbourhood shopping centres. of the dates i had wif her,i preferred the date at Bishan playground where we shared toast and a packet of iced milo :)))

following tt was the trip to Port Dickson.holidays had never been a disappointment to me.:DD the scenery.the life of the ppl there.the food. it seems like they haf lesser things to worry,no target sales.as long as they could fill their stomach for the day,its good enough.of course,tt's only on the surface.:)) these are the moments when i wish tt i dun haf to return back to Spore : well,no way to escape from reality :)

after wic,i had a d8 wif pri-sch-buddy-cum-neighbour at Republic Poly.we went for a talk on Problem Based Learning which is the study approach they adopted there.target audience was supposed to be students who took O's but no harm in me-ramai-ramai-ing the place,kn ;P

looks like dec holidays passes by super,duper fast.so,where did my plans to do some reading up before school starts gone to??dibawa ombak pantai P.D nampaknya.hehe :PP

imnotgivingupyet!musttrytrytrytopushttpointupupupbeforeitgetstoolate,insyaallah:))

2008-12-21T22:00:00.003+08:00

i reallyy,badlyy,seriousllyy wanted SPORE to win.

boohoo.. :'( its just not our luck,i suppose.Noh Alam Shah,Ridhuan and Jia Yi caught my attention in this match. they must be in the state of frust menonggeng at this very moment.wad's more,they(or should I say,we?) lost on home ground :(( once in a while when i feel slightly more patriotic than usual[moments when i sort of forget about People Always Pay Party :P],i felt that the referee was simply kelong :/ i mean,there was soooo many fouls i spotted on the Vietnamese side which i felt was ignored and he only acknowledged one of it after the V's scored a goal,during the injury time.pwettyy l8,no?..not tt im such an expert in football though :P which is vhhyy the moment my dad say,"no,lah,referee tak kelong," i kinda shut up aft tt.iyelah paisey dy :PP

Still,Mr No. 8 have my full support throughout the game and i believe i'll do so till the time when he's..umm..pancit.wahaha :DD i noe he tried his best.he charges at the ball like a bull upon seeing smtg red.power,power the fury!!garang,garang the fury!!i lovvee the fury!!:)))))))))

lets fly the spore flag!!!we may lose on the field but we have not lost our hearts,our guts.wwwwwwooahhh!!semangat woooorrrr.:DD

2008-12-14T22:43:00.004+08:00

thanks to someone(*ehem, u noe who u r lah:P), i watched a few Malaysian political videos online.hehehe..go watch the parliamentary debates and see how adults can quarrel like a child :P usually,im apathetic when it comes to politics but this particular video caught my attention.listen to the whole speech,some will make u laugh or at the very least,smile.(reminiscing about how he first met his wifey and him teasing his fren.heee:DDDD))Yet,I cant help thinking how its quite a waste 2 see a frenship ending in an unhappy manner :|

still not getting it?
im talking about Tun Dr Mahathir and Dato' Seri Anwar Ibrahim :/

hopefully,one day, they could forgive each other and improve on what have been left behind,insya-allah. i personally feel tt forgiving is easier than forgetting.human beings are weak when it comes to ppl doing smtg bad towards them.i feel tt not forgetting has its pro-ness.by not forgetting,one will take extra effort to avoid repeating the ugly past.still,the best is doing both forgiving and forgetting.its up to one to judge.

:D

2008-12-12T14:59:00.004+08:00

Episode 3(10/12/08)

woahh!!spending time wif yj besties are simply fantabulously,marvellous!! I LOVE EVERY single one of them.be it the ones who are present or not:))))))))))))) im sooo glad to have met them,t o pour out my stress-nessss and complaiin,complain complain..and hearing the latest scandals from them.kihkihkih..sape terasa pedas,dialah mkn cili. ;P hee.apparently,i've rosak-ed the malay language officially!i cant imagine ckg nuraidah's and ckg aminah's face shld they stumble upon this blog sumday.hhhhhhhha :DDD
food was gr8 to the point tt my plate was kinda licin-ed.worth the $$.after tt we went off to pray zohor at the mosque nearby.alhamdulillah :DD

i can be pwetty sentimental,really.up to the point whr i pray tt the friendship i forged,forging and will forge kekal hingga ke akhirat.insya-allah.i wanna c us all berkumpul,hopefully, 2gtr wif our family,our loved ones, p.b.u.h Rasulullah and as many umat islam as possible :)) okok,i should stop,airmata dh kt hujung bila tulis benda2 gini.haha.

hope to c u guys again:D take care dosti's.biarlah jauh di mata tp kita dkt di hati.
and now he's asking me to wait for him to come online later so tt we can gossip2! ;P eeee.ajak aku buat dosa ni..nottie3 sgt,sgt,sgt!!ishk3! :P

2008-12-07T21:33:00.005+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA HAJI :)))))

terkenang pengorbanan Nabi Ibrahim dan Nabi Ismail ni,apalah pengorbanan yg aku lakukan dlm hidup aku so far?nothing worth remembering or mentioning.in fact,tym belajar complain,holiday pun complain,buat tymtable pun complain,wad and when do i not complain?ishk3! : betul betul betuuuuull

wad are my worries compared to those who face the loss of their loved ones in the recent case of landslide in KL ,floods in Kelantan,terrorists attacks and what-nots.[ i heard on the news one of those killed in the landslide told his dad to mengucap when they r already in the panic state.subhanallah.hw many of us would rmbr tt when we r facing such a situation.what's our ending gg to b like?]

i worry about my exam results when this ppl are grappling with the issues of life and death.we,singaporeans worry about the economy,when there are ppl out thr who dont even now if they gt to live through the day..whether there will be a tomorrow for them.The unity of Islam is evident here.if we pray together,we earn many,many times more pahala than when we do it on our own..as we rukuk together,sujud together towards one direction,towards the ONE and ONLY :))))))))))

2008-12-03T21:15:00.007+08:00

Episode 1[1/12/08]:

We planned but things didnt turn out the way we expect them to.

1. expected 5 ppl to turn up,then it was down to 4 before it eventually settled to 3. the rain inteferred the plan once,and the 3 of us almosssstt cancelled the whole thing.

2.at the point of time when we met, the weather got better.Ate at LJS for a meal tt's not worth the $$.ishk3! :/

3.it rained again as we were making our way to ECP jjustt before we managed to cross the expressway.heh:))

but still,it was FFUUNNN :DDD we lepak-ed at the sheltered playground at the neighbouring block and we headed off to the airport instead.of course i loooiikkeeee.afterall,its PLLAANNESS kn?? :DD

:(( held hostage!!

favourite cleopatra pose :DD no further explanation required ;P

Episode 2 [5/12/08]:

finally i got a chance to 'pounce' on a bicycle!!wahaha..now im sounding gelojoh la plak.heh:P

wif saper lagi kalo tk

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am counting down to episode 3.heeehe :DDD

5 more days.

meanwhile back to the life's everyday challenges.planning the timetable.the electives im interested in either has zero vacancy and a loonnnnggg waitlist or is not offered in the coming semester : .. masya-allah.i've been trying to settle this since monday n my patience is thinning.tkpe2 khai..its the holidays.take ur time and senyumlah :))))))))))))))

2008-11-30T10:28:00.004+08:00

apparently
i've got nothing much to blog,
i've got not much videos to watch,
i've got not much mails to open and read,
i've got not much ppl to chat wif online at the moment,

all when the EXAMS is/are over.does it always happens this way?when u're free,u're REAALLII FREE,u get bored? i need a job to activate my brain cells :

i decided to post up smtg tt's been gg around my neighbourhood lately.
presenting to u:

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LIFT UPGRADING PROJECT!!!

dig summore,dig summore.
check out wad it did to the drains..

it turned the longkang into a sea of tea-coloured water.(okay!this is soo exaggerating!)not tt it aroused my sense of taste at all !:P

so this is wad increasing government spending means.hee..

just tt we haf to bear wif the noise pollution & the unsightly sight.ha.

btw,here's smtg to share.we noe that the syaitans are around us and are constantly trying to provoke us into doing sins.yang paling menyeramkan apabila dia cuba membolak-balikkan hati kita. sedangkan awalnya kita ikhlas nak buat sesuatu,dia cuba memesongkan hati hingga kita akhirnya melakukannya untuk menjadi bahan pujian.nauzubillah. sejujurnya, kadang2 diri ini akui digoda begitu.lemah nya aku nk melawan tanpa doronganNYA.ayuh!geng2,kita lawan syaitan yg jaahhhatt ni dengan pertolonga n ALLAH!GEERRAMMNYEEER!! kita saling ingat-mengingati.aku pun banyaakk melakukan dosa :'( inilah Jihad sebenar!!:)) bukannya menghabiskan nyawa insan tak berdosa. I am seriously saddened by the news of the Singaporean who got killed in Mumbai. Ini suma bisikan syaitan yg nk menjatuhkan maruah islam!tk suka,tk suka!hmpff!!

tt's all for now.
im gg off for a cycling trip wif "girlfrens set one" hheee:))))))

2008-11-19T10:55:00.001+08:00

if only this is true.life would be..wooooooooooooaaaahhhhhhh!heavenly:DD
well..anyway, by the way,on the way,all the way(okay,when im in tt glee-ful mood,i start to mepek:P) im done with most of my papers and im smelling FFRRREEEDDDOMM:DDD
phewittt!!gerek amat2.i still haf one more paper but well,well,that's a week more,so i shall enjoy my wonderful break :DDD

oh ya!i want to share about this very brave friend of mine.seriously,i was awed by her.
we were on the way home after our papers and the train was packed with human beings of various smells :PP(ahak,last part isnt so necessary,but hey,its the truth,kn?hands up to those hu agree :P bnyk pun..yg TAK angkat tangan.ahaha.:DDDD okay,stop merepek!!!)the thing is we saw an old lady piggy-bagging her grandchild,no seats for her.Her grandchild apparently looked very tired and he insisted on sitting,which was why she resorted to tt.this despite, her hunched back.
and so my fren was soo pissed with some ugly singaporeans,she tegur-ed a man,a total stranger,and requested tt he gave up his seat.wwwwwwwooaahh!! berani kn?

what was i doing thr?just silently admiring my frens courage.heee~~would i do tt,ever?ntahlah.sometyms to even tegur someone im close wif,i feel wary,afraid of hurting the otr party..is it a weakness?ishk3!

funny thing is..after she did tt,she kinda hid her face.apparently,she saw tattoo on the guy's neck; fierce-looking ones.haha. but of course,he was in fact harmless :DD again.lesson number eight hundred and sixty two,never judge a book by its cover.goshh!!i mentioned this many a times but still, ishk3!**shake head,shake head**tk blaja2!

have i not told u?i noe how to upload videoes ,dy!!!wwwwwwwwwwwwwoooaahhh!!! :DDD
its an achievement for me :PP.timakasih cikgu ipah a.k.a Zaifah. tgk2.special mention tau :P

2008-11-14T16:00:00.000+08:00

oh.

im leaving it totally to Him.

Praying hard for miracles to happen.

The hopes I pinned on my stronger papers have been dashed.

oh dear..phy n maths :'((

the papers were in fact,do-able.i knew it was.

once the papers were done, i refused to share my answers wif my frens cause i noe,its not gonna make me feel better :/

i believe tt i've gt no one else to blame but myself.it's entirely my fault.i knew i wasnt prepared enough.

Ya Allah.Tolong aku.help me.U heard me,hearing me now and will continuosly hear me.my complains, woes,sadness,anger, frustration;simply u noe everything.u noe what's best for me.do show me the right path for im weak,im ignorant n i have been taking my education forgranted.i havnt been thankful enough for the things i have. :((

during this times,do i start to wonder and ponder.what if i wake up one day to find myself buried?will i be ready to face the darkness?will i be ready to face the angels with the questions;questions that we can prepare for but it will only be useful if we put wad we learn to practice. indahnya islam.Islam teaches us to put both theory and practical together.its never enough to simply have only on of the two.kalo kita tak solat, tk care pasal saudara-mara Islam di luar,tidak menggunakan Al-Quran sebagai pedoman,tkkn mungkin blh dijawab 5 soalan yg bunyinya mudah itu! wonderous isnt it?all the lifeskills are taught in the religion.subhanallah :D

for that,i shall put what i've learn to practice.wad have been done cant be undone.

the future is uncertain n i can still change it if im willing to change my ways.

YES,WE CAN!(*cheerss n clapps fpr MR OBAMA* :DDD)

afterall wads one semester compared to 7,kn?insyaallah,if this is realli meant to be my field,i will eventually pull through :))

so dont give up Khai!there are many ppl out thr praying for u.*winks*

ps:hajjar,nah!ko kata blog aku tkda gmbr kn.ahaha.amik ko,aku punya current source of motivation :P

2008-10-23T17:11:00.000+08:00

I hope this time it works.hee.
today im gonna post a video on airplane flutter. i seriously think its amazing. i didnt know tt the wings could move in such a manner, making the plane look preettty SEEEXXaaYYY..uuuu.. saucy.LOL!:DDDD see.. i may be the few ppl who takes aero course n never been on board a plane b4 hence, the suaku-ness. prolly u guys have known this wayyy b4 i did :P

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im sad-ded. I failed after successive attempts trying to upload the video!!! :((( amidst my excitement to share smtg i find sooo fantabulous. i will learn this,but not just yet. Exams comes first. 19 more days!!!

in any case, if u are interested, go check it out!here are the steps:
1) visit http://www.youtube.com/
2) type the keyword "airplane flutter" and click on SEARCH
3)just choose any of the videos and watch lar,pe lagi!heee. :PPP
my personal favourite is the B747 wind tunnel expmt.woohoo!reall sexxayy...haha. :DD

i sound deprived.
my fren said im depressed.
haha.
must be,coz the quality of my jokes falls below the standard of ISO.
n the ppl ard me are making me aim for A's for my 7 modules, like it or not.hah!
..crap.life is more than just tt!
luckily i have ar-rahman to accompany me. :DD

2008-10-15T20:23:00.000+08:00

and so my fren is planning to gt the First Class.me?hee..its for me to noe,n for u to find out..chey!!
aniway, I'll continue to aim for the best for myself but i dont aim to be the best.There's a reason to it.heh.once again its for me to noe,n for u to find out.hah.obviously, dh tkde modal nk berbual kn??:P

I read this wonderful msg from the founder of Hand Society(go google,to check it out).Its meant to inspire us all,should we ever feel inferior whenever,wherever:

I am only one person

but I am still one person

I cannot do everything

but I can do something

Just because I cannot do everything

I will therefore not stop

from doing the little something I can do

of course, for me,personally, I believe tt prayer is the bestest therapy of all.don't u agree?;P

:DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

2008-10-07T21:51:00.000+08:00

i had an experiment on perspective drawing.its really the coolest expmt i've ever done!!! sooo the i LOOIIIKKEE,you :DD terperasan jadi architect for awhile.:P it made me recall on my strong passion for architecture back then.nevertheless,it had changed for the better,insya-allah.still my love for physics have not been diminished.let's make it stay tt way,yeah!all the way insyallahh..Ago-go-go!haahh.

counting down to exams!!!

jengjengjeng

34 more days!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MMMMMMUUUGGGGGGGG!!!!

2008-10-05T18:01:00.001+08:00

hw's everryyoneeee??? HAPPY?! hopefully so. come on peeps.lets smile :DDD

ahakzz..randomness.aniway,alhamdulillah.im feeling soo contented at the moment.this week alone,i've been back to kampung twice,which explains my jubilance.close to the greenery(rite spelling?):DDD raya in spore isnt as fun as back in Johor.here, everyone rushed bcz the next day they have sch,work etc,etc..we really need a break sumtyms n the best escapade is MALAYYSSIIA.at least for me.heh :P

i still remembered raya days back in my pri sch days.my dad's side used to rent an open-air lorry and we'll squeeze in it. even when my aunties offer rides on their car,i'd still prefer the lorry. once, my tudung even flew off.haaaaaaa.den the lorry stopped,just for me tau.ehem!impt wasnt i??:P

now,wif the increasing affluence,most families in the paternal side haf their own cars.so..yeahh,u noe i noe.kinda lack in the fun factor,i feel.also this yr,out of 9 families only 4 families turned up for the roundings.eventually when it's my family's house,only 2 families were left.tt too,cause its at nite,they appeared to be in a hurry :/ nevertheless,we understand.the commitments and all.still i enjoyed raya in kmpg,now,then,n insyallah forever!heh.

plusses..waiting for sum1 to come online is reaalllyy worth the patience:DD

2008-09-27T22:12:00.000+08:00

im trulyyy amazed by the Chinese spirit.

while they r in the midst of the melamine issue, on another part of the country, they launched a spacecraft along wif 3 astronauts. Cool ain't they? It seems only weeks ago that they were enjoying the fruits of their labour in the Beijing Olympics. I mean..they dont allow certain events to bring them down. Always hungry for success though sometyms,it seems like they r gelojoh and tamak kn,kn?especially those who we see in the uni's.i could actually picture the words "KIASU" on their faces as they pass by me :PP.haha.of course not all of them behave tt way. I used to have some wonderful classmates from China.heh :DDD

rmbr the Prophet Muhammad's quotes?

"Carilah ilmu walau sampai ke negara Cina".

wic means to seek knowldg even if u haf to rxplore ol the way to China

see the relevance now?hah. Subhanallah.wadeva he said is sooooo true.

he's the one who promote globalisation,notice tt?:DD

btw,currently im into this uberrr jiwang song.dont ask me y..im putting the 'blame' on the PMS syndrome.haha.emo abis.sekejap mood ray,sekejap mood gembeng.sukati ko lah,yun ;P layannnnnnnnn

http://http//www.imeem.com/people/ZqmqTK/music/8TZbvIZ1/azie_kau_tetap_dalam_angan_ku/

i've yet to learn how to rename the link in a more presentable manner.nxt tym lar eh,,meanwhile bear wif the messy looking link above :P